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venting and shiz

OK, so.

I was sobbing hysterically about a half an hour ago, because of DeLannie.

Why?

Well, it's super mature (please note sarcasm here), so try not to laugh/cringe.

But DeLannie posted a musical.ly a while ago, I haven't checked her profile in forever until today.

And it was a photo slideshow.

Of her friends (screenshots of their musical.lys (which they all have)). Btw, I post musical.lys too. Just clearing that up.

And there were a few pictures of each friend (if what I know is correct, you can post a lot of pictures).

Guess who was included?

Ava, Claire, a person I've never seen before, Pipper, and Becca.

Not me.

I consider her my best friend that is female.

And since I have no idea what mild emotions are, I start getting really upset. But not to the point of tears.

So then, I rewatch it just to make sure my assumption is correct.

I was correct.

I didn't notice it until later, but the description said "I have many more friends," (then why didn't you post a video with your other friends??? Like I would've done that because I care about people's feelings).

But she says she loves all her family and friends, but, then, if you really cared, why didn't you just post a musical.ly with your other friends/family?

So I burst out into tears, and when I feel an emotion, that emotional usually takes up my entire being, mainly when I'm sad. So I draw a picture of her with my watercolors and she looks smug. I plan to do something to it later. What specifically? I have no clue.

So I want to die, kill someone, and hug her at the same time.

I already hate my being, so this made me hate myself even more.

Ok please don't hunt down these people they're amazing (except Ariana, who Delannie says is one of her bffs. She can go die in a hole for all I care), I'm just really upset and I can't control my emotions so they get really out of hand.

Ok bye my emotional ass is out