Heartbeat Or Break

《08》

I woke up the next morning, I still felt horrid, but the first thing I felt was my eyes stinging from how badly I cried last night. I knew I had classes, so I prepared my assignments and bag for the day, but despite my despairing day yesterday, I remembered how the woman Khristal had helped me to understand my own feelings, so I decided to buy her a gift later on in the day.

I put on my clothes and did what I normally do in the mornings however when I looked in the mirror I did not see my normal smiling face, but the same stoic look that Ming Kwan had worn yesterday after the unwanted words that my mouth had spoken. It made me want to cry just remembering it. Remembering just the thought of it created a sharp dagger that threatened to plunge through my chest.

I had got out early and set off to the shops. When I found a shop that was open at the early time I had arrived, I moved through the endless aisles for something even in the slightest bit worthy of the woman Khristal who I had confided in a dark time that I wish never happened. I just happened to find an ornate, handcrafted and small jewellery box, with decorative crystals on the front creating a peace sign in varying crystals creating a rainbow pattern. I bought it, having it gift wrapped by the kind old man in the store who tapped his nose, saying "for the lady?", I just shook my head because as nice as she was, I didn't see her in that light at all. Sure, she is like an angel, but not my angel.

I made my way out of the shop and drove to the university. I attended my classes as normal, but Beam was constantly nagging and saying I wasn't myself and asking why.

Finally, I confronted this and replied, "I am the same as normal Ai'Beam, why do you bother yourself with something that is not there".

"No, Ai'Kit I was not born yesterday and I know something is wrong, even Pha has noticed it and he is thick", Beam managed to earn himself a whack on the head from Pha and I couldn't help chuckle. "See! Normally you'd be rolling on the floor laughing, but you merely giggle at the sight", he continued.

Then we went to get lunch and Pha invited Wayo to come to the place we were before. We began eating our lunch when our nongs' arrived.

Upon seeing Ming, I wanted to cry all over again. His state was not good at all, he walked lazily and not caring, it contrasted to Yo's greatly and Yo looked concerned for Ming too. He had this strange depressed air about him, everyone else seemed to be fine, but to me it was suffocating. I felt like I was in a state of asphyxiation with no oxygen, the mist that surrounded the younger was eating away at the oxygen I breathe and me, myself.

He was not wearing any cologne as he normally would, when he had passed by my his smell was quite intoxicating still and he had no hair gel applied, but I will admit he still looks handsome, but his mood and expression was an apparent solemn reminder of how he felt.

Yo went on to greet all of us with an average good afternoon, but I noticed Ming only said, "good afternoon, P'Pha and good afternoon, P'Beam", and this felt like I had been stabbed several times as he completely ignored my existence and even though he had every reason to do this to me for my unwanted and unkind words. That didn't make it hurt any less.

It went on like that for a long time and Beam tried to ask Ming questions as to why he was in his current state, he managed to brush it off successfully.

Then I saw one of the people I had been watching out for this whole lunch and I took the gift out of my bag. I suddenly got up, forgetting to explain my task in fear that she would finish quickly and leave.

"Thank you so much for yesterday", I said to Khristal, pushing out the gift towards her and away from where it had been protected with my torso.

"This is too much", she tried to push the gift back to me, but I insisted and she took it finally and gave me a warm hug. "Also is the boy glaring at us right now, the boy you love?", she said and I turned back, to see Ming snap him head away from us, although I didn't see his expression.

I started blushing, realizing how blunt she had been. "Yes, but I still don't know how to make up with him, so I think he hates me now, he won't speak to me and ignores my very existence", I was about to go on, but she cut me off.

"He looks stern, but he doesn't look mad, he seems to lack a certain emotion and you need to help him get it back. However I've slacked off enough, but thank you so much for the gift and come visit me sometime", she hugged me and returned to her work smiling and waving me off.

I was about to go back to the group, when Yo dragged me off, this surprised me greatly. He sat me down on a bench and sat down himself.

"P'Kit, you and Ming are acting strange and you see the state he is in right now. That's not the worst of it. Last night, he came to my house, he wasn't drunk but tears were falling from his eyes forming puddles in my home. He is only attending today because I forced him to, I don't want him to miss anything because I cannot bring him notes or that stuff. He chose not to wear any hair gel! He stayed over at my place and all he did was cry and hyperventilate. I mean he cried himself to sleep and never in my lifetime have I seen Ming do that. In his sleep he had several nightmares, but he constantly mumbled 'kit' and 'no', while tossing and turning", Wayo stopped and I didn't realize why until he wiped away my own tears delicately with a tissue. He smiled at me to reassure me. "Just try mend both your hearts because I don't think Ming is stable enough to", he said getting up and pulling me back to the group.

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Hi KatsuKitKat here
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Just a heads up that I will be writing a bonus chapter (PhaYo) when this story hits 10k reads. It has now so I'd better work faster!

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