Heartbeat Or Break

《09》

Wayo sat me down before returning to his spot by Phana. My face felt puffy, but Wayo had assured me that I looked fine. The rest of the time we all spent together was idle chit-chat and Beam copying some notes off Pha. Nothing unusual, apart from the fact Ming was ignoring my existence, although I guess I wasn't making much of an effort to interact with him either.

"What are you all going to be doing during the weekend?", Beam asked openly and the only one who had a reply was Yo.

"At some point I want to go to an amusement park! Otherwise I have no clue as to what I will be occupying my weekend with", he said gleefully.

"You can occupy it with me", Pha smirked, elbowing Yo with a pervert face.

"You can come to the amusement park too, if you like", Yo replied innocently and by the end of the conversation, there was a plan to go to the amusement park all together and everyone was happy about it excluding only two people, Ming and I. To me it sounded like a day of being ignored by him and it would be very awkward as Wayo and Phana as well as Beam and Forth would go on rides as a pair, leaving myself and the boy who won't even look at me.

After we all parted ways, I continued my lessons as normal. I wasn't really paying attention to the teacher and Pha was texting Wayo and Beam flicked his pencil around. We were let out for break, although the professor sent me to the main wing of the university because she needed some documents delivered urgently, but she had to prepare the next part of the lesson. She gave me the electronic key to the staffroom as that was a shortcut she told me to take. I was to walk quickly to the engineering department, up the West stairwell and across a balcony that overlooked one of the halls and go through the staffroom and leave the documents on the principal's office, located just outside the staffroom and take the reverse route back.

I felt a sense of duty and paced towards the engineering department, I walked into the building and there were a few pupils here and there, gossiping and eating so I guess they were having a break from lessons too.

I walked up the stairs and bumped into Forth, who asked why I was in the engineering department and I replied with my destination.

"You're in the wrong stairwell, this is the East and it links to all the electrical engineering laboratories", he said calmly. He pointed me in the right direction of the West stairwell. I thanked him and mentally slapped myself for not knowing the difference between East and West today. My mind had been so unfocused and everything in my life was unruly at the moment.

I reached the top of the stairwell and made my way to the bridge. I walked out onto it, to find the only person who I could've done without seeing in this moment. Ming Kwan, moon of the engineering department, the one who I had broken the heart of and the one who I had gotten my heart broken by.

He was staring down into the empty hall below, as I walked onto the bridge, he turned his head towards me with a despairing look, but then he looked back to empty hall without giving me a second glance. This punctured my heart and I felt as if all the air in my lungs left me to fend for myself. The pain in my chest, made itself abundantly clear and it hurt so much that I was about to cry, but I held back my tears. What hurt the most though was that he didn't spare me a second glance, in striking comparison to the time where he would not stop looking at me.

As I walked on ahead, I told myself that I wanted to feel his gaze on me again and I wanted him to be close to me like he had been before.

Ming POV

I was surprised by the sudden presence on the balcony and saw Kit hurrying across the balcony, I was curious as to the reason why, but I paid no heed to his actions and continued to stare at the empty hall. The hall in its current state could compare to the hollow feeling in my heart, but as if something had been ripped out with great force and now the ever present echo of what had been there, remained.

I was tempted to follow Kit, poke his dimples and just stare at his beautiful countenance, but I knew he would never want me to, so I resisted my urge and left the balcony and returned to class early. It had already been so hard ignoring him for his own happiness and peace earlier during the meet up with everyone, so I feared if I saw him again, that I'd end up doing something that would make him hate me more than he does.

I will admit that when I had seen him hugging that girl from the gardening committee, I got very jealous. They were hugging, but every time I had tried to hug Kit, it was always one-sided with no response from Kit, unless to insult me. The insults had not affected me much and I had always brushed them aside like it was nothing, but now each and every insult came back to me, but this time they all felt very real.

The day when I promised myself never to do anything to Kit that he truly didn't like, was the same night where I ended up staying at Yo's. Yo had pushed me into the shower to freshen up, but after the shower, the only thing that had changed was that my tear stained face didn't look so bad anymore, but that didn't mean my heart felt any better.

Class finally started and I tried my best to focus, but this was to no avail as my mind was elsewhere.

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