My head is splitting, I feel like quitting
I no longer know what to do
I'm paranoid, while you're overjoyed
You can't see how I'm so blue
I know that you're happy, I can't help I feel so crappy
I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you
You say it's fine, but I can tell you are lying
I wish I could feel your joy too
I gasp and I pry, I try hard not to cry
I hope you'll forget all I do
Just know it's not your fault, I'm a victim of my own assault
You have no idea, I'll never blame you
There was nothing to be done, I knew my demons had won,
But I refused to open up and show you
Perhaps I should have, but I doubt I actually could have
I feared I would only hurt you if I were to be true
Though now that it's too late, I see I should have unlocked my gate
I should still be there for you
You start crying and going loose, as you see me flying from my noose
I realized too late, I can't go back and change my fate
I now see what I do can hurt you
I'm sorry that I made you just as blue
