Picking up the pieces

Chapter one

I have to be honest and say this is my first time writing... I'm not the best at Spelling and stuff like that but I do hope u like the chapter comment what u think and changes I need to make! P.s this story is very sad and triggering, u have been warned!

It's dark really dark, I look up to see him. The one I'm scared of the most in the house. He is leaning over me like I'm a puppet. I feel his hands all over my body. I start to cry begging Tyler to stop.

But of course he doesn't instead he says
" Shhhh Holly, stop that crying before you make things worse for yourself "

I do my best to obey his whishes but I'm just so scared I don't really understand what is happening. But I know it's not what a five year old should be doing.

As Tyler takes my hands and make them touch every inch of his body. I start to shake. Scarred know what happens next.

" Holly, unbutton my pants and show me what those hands of urs can do " Tyler says in the most scariest voice

I shake my head trying to say no but he grabs my hands and makes them touch him down there.

Tyler makes a sound that I don't understand and I try with all my might to get my hands back to myself. But I'm to weak and small to do much.

After I was able to get my hands free. Tyler started to take his clothes off. When he tells me to do the same I just sit there in the chair close to the kitchen.

Tyler would just start taking then off for me. I cry even more wishing my dad, Mom , anyone could help me. But know one does.....

I wake up socked in sweat, trying to Catch My Breath. I open my eyes to see that I'm in my room. Save under the blankets.

The last thing I remember before everything goes blank is Tyler's hand all over me and him make me do things that no one should be forced to do. I also remember the cologne his strong cologne if I didn't know any better I would say that he was trying to hide something. Another smell of some sort.

I get out of my bed knowing to well that I won't go back to sleep. I never do, so I get ready for the day.

I throw on riped skinny jeans and a plan baby blue shirt on with my white flats.
I put my hair in a high ponytail, brush my teeth, and let my dog out.

Walking into the kitchen I hear my mom ask me
" Holly, did u take your meds this morning ?? "

" Oh shit I need to take those but instead." That's only if my mom wasn't home or anyone else for that matter so I say
" No I'm going to go take those now."

When I take my meds I see my dad.
" Hey sweetie, did u take ur meds like ur supposed to?"

I roll my eyes and respond
" Yes I did , oh when is my doctor's appointment ??"

" It's at 11:05 " mom says with a sigh

I nod my head and go to my room and just think. When will the nightmares go away? Why did the just come back when I work so hard to forget? And the most important when should I tell them ??

TIME SKIP !! HEHE

Mom,Dad and I all get in the car and drive to the doctors. All the way there I just play my favorite game in the world " piano tiles"

I feel the car move to a stop I look up from my phone and realize we are at the doctor's

We all walk in as a family of course. I feel my heat speed up for no reason I guess I'm nervous.

We take a seat and wait untill my name is called.

" Holly Smith "
Says a young nurse
I walk to her and down the hall like I been here a million times. I get on the scale and see how much I way. I never look because I know if I do I will feel bad about myself.

" You can take a seat there if u would " the nurse said with a a smile.

She checks my temperature as well as my blood pressure.  " Well Ms.Smith what are we hear for ?? "

I look at the nurse and try to think what to say but nothing comes out but " uhhhhh mom "
I look at mom to see what she says as well as the nurse.
" For a fallow up " she responds nicely.

I look to my dad who seems worried about me and my problems.

When the nurse is done writing things down on a piece of paper. She takes us to a room with a number 3 on it.
Before she leaves she says " the doctor will be with u shortly "

Looking around the room I see toys for small children. Mom and dad on there phones. Then I see a big map of the United States. I look at that for a long time.

Then I here the doctor come in but I like to call him " funny, adventurous doctor just bc he seems out going and he talks to me as if I have no tast in books xD

When funny doctor leans on the  counter and looks at us.
he asks a question like always.

" Holly how have u been ? "

I answer him with no care in the world " I'm good "

Then he starts asking more and more questions like "how does the meds work for you?? Do u still have the suicide thoughts? "

I answer "they seem too work fine and I have the thoughts but not as much."

He looks at my parents and say what do u guys think. Like always my dad didn't answer. Mom does
" She's hyper all the time, it works but she's hyper."

Doc says " oh I see so I'm going to make her take a different one to help her better but this one might not work either because there are so many we can use for this."
We look at him the he says
" 3 days is all she needs before she takes the new medication I give her. she also need to take it at night. Well that's it I would like to see her next week "

We all look at each other and then starts to walk out the door. Mom takes dad's keys and walk to the car as I over hear my dad talk to the doctor

" I still don't understand why she does the things she does. She's still seems off like there is something to tell." My dad says with a worried look

Doc answers " well I see  your point but let's see is things will get better with this then see what happens. She might even tell us what's wrong."

That all I heard be for I walked out the door to the car think, Should I tell them what happened 9 years ago or sould I keep it in and keep forgetting???....

So I hope u guys liked it
I know it's not the best but I'm still working on it plz tell me what u think ?
Love all u guys ❤
~ Hayley