Picking up the pieces

chapter two

Well thank u guys for reading even tho it's not a lot I'm still really happy !! Here goes nothing in joy

Time skip!! XD

It's been a week since I seen funny Doctor. But I still have the nightmares and feel as if I should tell them.

But what would I say ....?

I'm laying down on my bed thinking about if I should tell them or not.
I was so raped up in my thoughts I didn't hear my mom calling my name or even opening the door.

" HOLLY GET YOUR ASS UP U HAVE A DOCTORS APPOINTMENT AND FOR ONCE IN UR LIFE GET OFF THAT GOD DAMN PHONE!"

SLAM!!

I jump out of bed and throw on some clothes I don't even care about what I look like.

I was brushing my hair when my dad yells for me from the stairs.

" HOLLY COME TO THE STAIRS NOW !"
I run to the stairs with my brush, looking at my dad to see what he wants when he says

" Holly I want ur phone u will get it back when I say so me and your mom think that your on phone too much."

" But dad that's not far I want my phone plz"
I say with my baby voice.

" Holly stop your winning " my mom says

I roll my eyes and go to my room. After what seem like for ever I fell asleep.
I know I wasn't sleeping that long. When I hear my mom crying next to my bed.

I open my eyes and see her all red and puffy in the face. She looks up at me and the first thing she says is

" H..how long h..have u been keeping what t...Tyler did to you a secret ?? "

I look at her with no face like I could look through her.
Then she says
" I know u know what we are talking about, we went through your notes."

I just keep looking at her not knowing what to say. I just sit there like no one was even there. Then it hit me ...

They know, what do I do? What can I say?
Why was I so stupid enough to write that down on my phone of all places?

After a few minutes pass I say " I'm sorry I didn't tell u before. Plz don't be mad."

She responds
" Mad is that what u think I'm sick with my self for not being there to stop what he did to you. I just don't understand why u didn't tell use? We could have helped you! But u never said a word like it wasn't a big deal. But Sweetheart is such a big deal. Your a vape victim, I guess that's why u don't like people that much!?"

I look at my mom crying why is she like this it's okay that was just 9 years ago what so important about what happen? I worked my butt off to forget but here I am scared to say a word to my own mom. I'm frozen to scared to move to realize this is really happening. I'm not dreaming am I ?

What seemed like forever before I was able to move again I answered my mom

" I'm not saying much but he told me not to tell anyone even though I know what happened was wrong. I told his sister but she did nothing just sayed that im so lucky that I'm alife. "
I felt tears fall from my eyes and I felt my mom and dad hug me to keep me save.

After are little talk we called the doctor saying I'm not coming in but my dad had a long conversation about what he needs to do or what I am going to have to do for my self ??

For the things I heard him say was " she needs new meds , emotional wreck, and get her into a counselor immediately."

All I could think new meds again ? But why  I thought this one I was taking would be just fine but i guess I was wrong.

When I stopped thinking about is and my parents left i remember the last thing I was thinking before I fell asleep. Was Why is this happening? Why cant I just die? This is all so much it scares me.

So what did u think might have been thrown of topic but tbh I'm tired so I'm sorry well I hope u all in joyed that xP
Love u guys 💖
~ Hayley