A Master for Razel!

Chapter 11. Push through the pain

A/N~~this is the beach Razel and Luke went to as kids before everything went to hell and now they go back to it!! Beautiful, huh?

Razel/Zaire P.O.V

I sat there on the bed. All I did for the last five hours was stare off into space and watch a stupid crime show. Sighing, I sat up and pulled the thin hospital blanket higher in my waist. As if on cue a doctor walks in with Luke and Mike.

"Good morning, how did you sleep?" The doctor asked shinning his bright ass light in our face.

'Bastard. Tell him that shit hurts.'

Calm down. I sighed and just shrugged. "Could be better." He just nodded and wrote something on his chart. My hand fisted. Please, calm down. I feel my hand relax and I gave a relieved sigh.

"I'm sorry about that. I'll prescribe some sleeping medicine if you need it. I just have a few questions and then you are good to go." I just nodded. Luke came over and held my hand.

'Hiss. Hisssssss. Shoo.'

'What is your problem?' I asked. He seems more hostile towards Luke. I heard him sigh and I finally felt my entire body just sag.

'The reason we are the way we are is because... We did it all for him. So he can stay Innocent and grow to be normal. Right?' He asked sounding extremely pissed.

'Yes. I did it so he wouldn't have to. So what?' I was honestly curious why he was mad about that. He growled and I felt my body sit up on the bed and take my hand out of Luke's.

'What about us, huh? How come we never got to be normal? And for what all to protect something we are taking away by telling him everything. You wouldn't be the way you are if it wasn't for him. If he was not around you would have called child services and you would have been taken away from your father! And me...I WOULDN'T BE HERE!' He yelled and I flinched. He was right. In a way, he was right. However, Luke is my baby brother. He was the only thing that I wanted to live for at the time. I would do everything over again. I heard Zaire sigh. 'I know. And I know why you love him. It's just that innocences is like a mockery to us. Like he is flaunting what we were never able to have.' Ahh, so that's why. He is still guilty about everything.

'We will discuss this later. Ok?' I felt him agree and withdrew as much as he could to the back of my mind.

"Ok. When you came in... You were muttering things like; don't leave, switch and Razel. I would like to ask why?" The doctor asked softly. I just groaned.

"I was tired and having a panic attack. I don't really remember much." He nodded and wrote things down.

"Hmm. You're seeing a therapist right?" I nodded and again he wrote in his charts as Luke told him our therapist name. "Good. I recommend seeing one but you're already ahead of me. Ok, all my other questions were related to the first one but your answer changed that. You are good to go. Let me grab your discharge papers." Luke thanked him and watched him leave.

"Liar." Luke said as soon as the door closed. My eyes widened. He came and stood next to me. "You lied just now. You remember. You know what is wrong with you, don't you?" I just sighed and nodded. He went to say something but I cut him off.

"I need to tell you everything. From the beginning to the end. I will not say anything more until Friday. Now, take me home. We have a long day tomorrow." They just stayed silent. I guess I won that round.

'For now.'

'Shush.' I growled under my breathe. I heard his light chuckle then silence.