Hidden Heart (An Academy Fan fiction)

Chapter 8

When I woke up, I was pleasantly happy. I must have had a pretty great dream. I slowly get out of bed, kind of surprise that Kota was still asleep. Usually, he wakes up before me and is doing something around the apartment or he is gone doing whatever it is that he does.

I leave quietly and head toward the kitchen. I pause, wondering why there was so much dishes in the dish rack, and then yesterday comes back. I kept myself from thinking about it last night but I can't stop the questions and hurt from coming to my mind now.

How in the world did he keep eight friends from me? Eight guys that he said he considered family. What the heck?! Did he not want me to meet them? Do I embarrass him? I don't understand, I thought he loved me? Why did he hide this? We tell each other everything, well as much as he can with the Academy being a part of our lives.

I'm angry and I really don't like this feeling, which makes me more upset. I end up taking my frustrations out on the food while I cook breakfast.

What the bananas? The jerk, he kept this from me. He can't tell me about eight guys that are his brothers, but has to know every single thing about my life? We have been together for over three years, you think that eight brothers would come up in a conversations. But no, they need to be a secret, why?

My anger is building, making my hands shake. I'm trying not to go in there and wake him up with this questions and demanding an answer. I mix together the ingredients for pancakes before pouring the batter in a pan and starting on the eggs and sausages. I focus and making breakfast, which calms me down a bit. By the time it's finished, my hands have stopped shaking.

"Morning Beautiful," Kota whispers as he wraps his arms around my waist, pressing a kiss just under my ear. And with that, my anger roars back to life.

"Morning," I say shortly, shaking his arms off and making my way to the table with pancakes in hand.

"Sang?"

I pause and look at him, he has a confused look on his face, making me want to giggle at how cute it makes his handsome face. But I force myself to hold back, not ready to forgive him quite yet. I raise an eyebrow at him.

"Are you okay?"

The flip? No, I'm not okay, my boyfriend lied to me about eight of his closes friends. Of course I don't say this to him, instead I go back to finishing the table.

I set the plates down before getting the rest of the food along with plates and forks, and then grabbing the butter and syrup. Sitting down, I serve myself and begin to eat quietly.

"Sang, can we talk about this?" Kota asks in a soft voice.

"About what?"

Kota winces at my tone. "About why you're mad?"

I look at him, "you don't know why I'm mad?"

He pauses, looking down. "I think I do."

"Then, why am I mad?"

"... Because I didn't tell you about my brothers?"

I nod, "Yes, and why did you do that?"

He pauses, looking down again but doesn't answer.

"Do you not trust me? You lied to me for four years? What else did you lie about?" I feel the tears start to gather. "Do you even love me? Are you happy with me? Do you regret meeting me? Are you with me out of pity?" I end up sprouting out all of my insecurities.

"WHAT! No, Sang, I love you. You are my world. The day we met is the one of my happiest memories! The happiest is when you said yes to being my girlfriend. Sang, you are the love of my life. It's not that I don't trust you, it's that, well, I.." he trails off, pausing, thinking.

"Sang, I was... I was afraid of losing you to one of my brothers."

"The bananas, Kota? That doesn't make any sense. Don't you know how much I love you? How much I adore you?"

"Sang, you don't understand. All of them are all talented and good looking. I was selfish! I didn't want to share you!" Kota all but shouts, not looking at my face.

"I don't understand."

"Of course you don't but you will. They know about you now. They are going to be curious, and then they are..." he trails of, shaking his head and leaves the room going towards our bedroom.

I sit there, not understanding. Feeling hurt that he wouldn't tell me and now just walking away. Why would he think I would end up with someone else? And what was he going to say? I wipe my face from the tears that I didn't know were falling. Taking a deep breath, I get up from the table and make Kota a plate. I put it in the microwave before cleaning up the dishes and putting away the rest of the food. I wash the dishes and clean the stove from all the runaway batter that came from making pancakes. With nothing else to do, I stand there. I'm not sure what to do. I mean sure, Kota and I got into small arguments. And I think this is our first major fight and while I just want to apologize, I know it's not my fault. He hid this from me.

I make my way to our room, dragging my feet along the way, slowing my progress to the door. I know I need to get ready, but I really don't want to go in there yet.

Knock Knock Knock

Well, I guess that helps me procrastinate a bit longer. "I got it," I kind of shout out loud and make my way to the front door.

I get to the front door, unlock it and open it. Luke and Gabriel's smiling faces greet me, or at least they were smiling before their jaws dropped again. The sense of Deja vu washes over me. I then remember I'm still in my pjs, which consist of small shorts and a cami with a built in bra. Thank goodness for the built in otherwise situations like these could be a tad awkward. I blush, "Hi guys!" I open the door more to let them in.

"Hi, Sang! Sorry to bother you, but we need to steal Kota for a bit." Gabriel tells me as he and Luke take a seat on the couch.

"Okay, no problem. Keep him for as long as you want," I kind of mumble the last part as I head to the bedroom. "Oh, there is left over breakfast in the fridge. Help yourselves!" I call over my shoulder. I don't have to look back to know that the quiet hurried footsteps to the kitchen are coming from Luke.

Author's Note: 

Hi everyone! I'm so sorry I have been lacking with updates, a friend had committed suicide and I have been feeling down. But I'm starting feel like myself again and hope to have updates be a regular thing again. 

Also, today is my birthday and I want to gift you wonderful readers an update for sticking with me even though I suck!!! 

I love you all!! 

Thanks eliwhi for being awesome and reading through this and encouraging me!! I love you!!!