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graycen,
The counselor and I were waiting outside of Taehyung's apartment for about twenty six minutes until he sped into his driveway.
"I am sorry, very sorry!" He apologetically said after he got out of his car and unlocked the door for us. The apartment building was basically outside instead on having a indoor hallway and all that mess. "Work was hectic today so please forgive me for being late." He kept the apartment clean and it was the same as when I was living there.
"It's okay," our counselor assured before looking around, "this place is nice so should we jump right in?"
"Sure," he gestured us to the sofa in the living room, "please take a seat if you'd like." After we all got seated our counselor had this huge binder in her purse, it was like a size of a suitcase.
"This can go by smoothly and as quick as possible or it can go by slow and depressingly," she said before looking at both of us with a straight expression, "so are we ready or what?"
I nodded my head instead of speaking, it was like my throat dried up and it prevented me from speaking. Flashbacks of the night that Taehyung wanted to divorce but I shook it off before crossing my legs. I tried to make my self look like I was fine or unbothered.
Amanda broke the awkward silence between us with a friendly smile, "So Graycen, this was the apartment that you used to live in with Taehyung?" My throat was still dry so I just nodded, what was there to say without me feeling I was going to explode? Nothing.
"Do you remember the night that the divorce happen?" I nodded my head again causing her to frown. "C'mon, use your vocals. I'll ask again, do you remember the night that the divorce happened?"
Clearing my throat, I kept my eyes on the wooden floors. "Of course-" I hiccuped before slowly looking at Taehyung, "of course I remember that night. It was one of the hardest nights of my life."
"Can you express why?"
"I don't feel like it." Taehyung's eyes were literally never left my face and his resting face never altered.
"This isn't going to work until you both just open up," she stated while I was too busy stealing glances at Taehyung who was still intimidating me with his stare, "so I'll ask you again, may you express why?"
"Obviously me not talking to Taehyung for months was pretty damaging but to me I was selfish," I admitted as I picked with my nails, "I didn't think that he would've needed me and I was oblivious to that because I needed to leave. I had to leave for myself and I had to do what I had to do."
"So you basically put yourself first?"
Without reluctance I nodded, "Yeah, I did. It makes no sense for me to deny it or even feel bad about it. It's over with and I can only move on from it."
