Broken

Wake me up

Hey again how are u doing,

I'm trying so hard to make the chapters longer , what do you think should i bring more characters to the story .
It would be great if u tell me wht u think

Enjoy this chapter

Listen to Avicii wake me up for this one.

I've been through a lot in my life so i learned how to bear the pain . It became my besf friend i know it too well and i got used to it , nothing can shake me more than my past , more than that particular night.

. Even though Matt was by my side and he helped get through most of it , i was still not healed and I'm still not,i think i won't ever forget what happened.

The thing is i learned how to fit in , i know how to fake a smile a nod a word.
It just became easier to be like this , pretending to be alright while I'm sinking and no body notices that.

Though Matt was the one who did see me in my worse , and it's clearly he didn't like the idea of being around me while I'm not Me like he said " i want the old Irine back"

Irine died that day and this is who i am now .

It's just so much to take in to feel guilty, broken and it's all closed inside ,no one knows , i don't open up to people.
All what i do is fake , i fake everything.

Even Sydney i never tell her what i feel or what i see when I'm asleep.

Gladly the nightmares are less now , i don't know why but i think it's all because i keep my mind busy , like my therapist advised me to do.

A couple of weeks ahead.

It's been a month since Danny moved around , so he's now particularly our official neighber.

I got to know him better now
He visits us from time to time and to be honest i still pumo to him in the elavator and he e helps me with whatever i have.

It's Saturday night , so it's Danny's band shift.

I asked him how he made it to be a good singer and how he got a band at the first place.

We're fine " that was his description of how wow they are , i got it being humble is one of his treats.

So he basically told me he was a singer since high school and that he never intended to make it a living" it's a passion he said .

He told me he was the one who made the band and that his friend John the son of the club owner who's his best friend, suggested the idea of singing in his dad club every Saturday.

So it was a good idea like Danny told me..

Damny invited us over to his department last night me and Sydney,we had fun together,like i said we got used to him being around.
Something about Danny i didn't tell you about he's funny , he's got a secret way of making you laugh no matter what.

He still asking me indirectly about my past but i always find a way to change the subject.  So he doesn't push me i told him I'll tell him when i feel I'm ready.

I do consider him as a friend unlike me Sydney thinks the opposite,  she thinks he likes me in some way.

I do catch him staring at me sometimes but it's probably he thinks I'm weird or something cause I'm not much of a talker.

Back to now.

I tried to talk Sydney out of going to the club , but she doesn't listen at all.

Irine I'm not a kid i can take care of myself.