I use to think I could save people, never once did I say it out loud, never admit to myself , but my heart knew,
The truth is, I can't save anyone , I can't even save self but Christ can, Jehovah-Hoshe'ah
I use to try to be everything to my friends, realised I can't be everything to no one,
Rather the one who can be my everything , can be their everything, Jesus Christ, Jehovah-Machsi
I use to find myself in friendships with people, who thought it was okay to constantly talk down to me, I use to allow their negative views of me , define me,
I use internalise every thing they say or implied, believing their view of me is who I am and all I will be, I walked away, Jehovah-'Uzam
I use to think I couldn't change, and that my sins which kept me in bondage , was a permanent prison, but Christ showed me, I can overcome by his blood, I can turn from my sins, because he's worthy and better than my sins, and who He has set free , is free indeed, Jehovah-Mephalt
I use to be indifferent to the idea of marriage, I hate what I saw,
I saw my mom give, I saw my dad take and became aloof,
but Christ showed me that earthly marriage is a broken view of something beautiful and eternal,
I use to think forgiveness was black and white, but I learnt forgiveness is emerged in love, forgiveness gives us the strength to bear the unbearable even when the person is unrepentant,
I remember isolation, I remember being comfortable there, but Christ called me out of that, he taught me that to love means coming out myself, so hello friend , I'm here for you because Christ is already here for me, allow me to love you through the love which Christ has drowned me in,
I use to think the idea of having loads of friends who cared about me , is a goal, but the bible told me , the man of many friends will come to ruin, hello handful, thank you for being a blessing in my life, thank you for loving me though my failures, encouraging me to get up, believe that I can change daily , thank you for seeing me through the eyes of Christ and enabling me love you better, thank you for allowing God to use to teach me how to love practically,
I use to , I still struggle with things, and I pray I'll say I use to do to more things, but under his blood, ( hallelujah Jehovah-M'Kaddesh), I overcame,
I know that through Christ, I can grow to be who Christ has called me to be, to look like him.
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PoetryI have not written anything in a long time. Last week, I was reading the parable about the talents and I said to God, " I haven't been using this talent and I don't want to lose it because it's a blessing to write poetry" but I haven't been inspired...
