Just the 3am rambling of a sad insomniac

9:17pm

I don't know what I want to say. this is the first time my mind just feels empty. 
what am I suppose to do with that? why am I over flowing with all these feeling with nothing to say? I can't seem to find the words to piece together the sick feeling in my stomach or the heaviness behind my eyes while I try my best to hold in my sadness. I don't feel okay but how do I explain that.