Black Heart {OUAT fanfiction}

Epilogue 5; Goodbye

"Us? What about us?" I questioned him and leaned against a chair, almost sitting down because I couldn't stand on my feet because of the damn stitches.

"I feel a distance." He blurts out. Not my fault, bud. "It's like we're growing apart."

"Something we can both agree on," I said, crossing my arms over my chest. "But that has nothing to do with me, I didn't do that."

"Of course, it was me." He says lowly. Still gazing at me, but he admits it. Or well, sort of. "I have been working too much lately and having too much fun with some other people."

"You can have fun with your friends, Joe. I'm totally ok with that!" I say. Calmly. But he doesn't seem to be mentioning 'friends' by the look on his face. "If you told me I wouldn't be angry right now."

He looks at me, pain in his eyes. "Y-you're angry?"

"Yes." I bluntly say.

"Of course you are, and you have every right too. I did something stupid and didn't have the fucking courage to tell you," He stops talking, I know where this is going. He slept with someone else, my fear just became reality. "I-"

"Slept with someone?" I ask, more mad than I intended to do. "Yeah, no second chance for you now." I roll my eyes.

"I'm sorry, Rose. I never meant to. It just happened and-" I was pacing already.

I stopped and looked at him while I cut him off. "Why am I not good enough?" 

"Rose.." He sighed, "You're everything."

"Clearly not since you slept with someone else and you're almost always gone to avoid my eyes, to avoid their eyes." I point to our children's bedrooms. "Why am I not good enough?" I ask again, a little more aggressive. He opens his mouth to answer but stays quiet. "So?"

"I don't know, Rose."

"Remember our wedding vows? Remember what you said, remember what I said?" He looks me in the eyes again and nods.

"Would I ever lie to you, you can kick me out and never have to look back at me again. But I know a day like that is not possible." He says, saying the exact line from his vow.

"And when you do, I solemnly swear I'll kick your ass. I said it with a laughter then, but now I mean it. Because I'm not happy." I repeat mine once more and looked at him, sternly. "I will promise you to fix us together, when the time is there I'll always be there for you even in the moments we lose trust, we hate each other or go wrong in every possible way." I continue to say my vow all over again. "There's no us after this conversation, you're getting out."

"Rose! You can't do that!!"

"Oh no? Watch me do it." He steps back at my sudden tone of anger. "Pack your fucking bags and leave, asshole." I slap his face hard. He flinches but doesn't speak. "And don't you dare coming back here ever again, leave your keys on the counter and I'll call when the divorce papers are ready."

"Rose-"

"I know this is not the first time you went with someone else, I have ears and eyes everywhere." I say pointing for the bedroom. "Get your fucking stuff and leave, I can't look at you anymore." I place myself at the dining table, looking at him when he walks into the bedroom.

A short 10 minutes later he comes out with a sports bag and his backpack filled with his clothes and belongings. He drops the keys on the table and looks at me, I take off my wedding ring and slide it to him. "Maybe you'll get some money out of it." I say.

"What about the kids?"

"Bailey is too young to decide who she'll live with, Sean can decide. I'll call you when we talked about it, but for now they stay here." He nods as a response and heads to the door, I notice that both Sean and Bailey are peeking from their doors. I shake that off and follow Joe.

"I'm sorry."

"That won't fix this marriage," I say as I open the apartment door. "Nice knowing you, Joe. But it's time to go." His name hurts to say, I never wanted it. But who would have known he would be like that? "Goodbye," I say as he steps out into the hallway of the apartment building.

"I'll always love you, Rose."

"You should have thought of that sooner," I say and shoot him a glare.

"Bye." He says lowly and walks away slowly. I slam the door shut, flinching at the loud sound of it. I slide down against it and start to cry. I bawl like a baby for what feels like hours, Bailey and Sean both rush to me and hug me tight.

"I'm so sorry, baby's." I tell them through tears.

"You did what was best." They both say and give me a tighter squeeze.

The following days have been awful, I had a lot of phone calls with my lawyer. Trying to make the situation better. Trying to get everything sorted out. But an divorce isn't exactly easy. Of course everyone handles it differently, but the whole progress is a pain in the ass.

I was working and calling with my lawyer at the same time, my meetings have all been delayed and my paperwork wouldn't be done every day. Giving it to my assistant instead, she knew what I was going through so she didn't question it and filled it in. Besides me, she knows the most about the company.

Even at home my phone didn't lay still, I was texting and emailing all the information what was needed.

But finally after 2 weeks, the divorce was handled and I was no longer a married woman. We didn't fight, we shook hands and went out silently, both heading in a different direction. He told me he was going to LA because he found a job, I never told him my plans. I was so worried he would be angry at me so I just lied to him about my plans. Lying isn't exactly my strongest point, but he didn't seem to question it.

Once at home we packed the last stuff before we brought it down to the truck, it was a large truck and everything fitted into it. All of our stuff was loaded and the truck started its way to Storybrooke, Maine. And we, we would leave just 4 hours later. We're going home.