train (showki) [✔]

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kihyun was walking back to the train station. his feet felt a bit heavy as his mind was clouded about the thoughts of his grandmother that lived alone. it would happen every week.

kihyun would be excited to meet his grandmother, boarding the train from inner busan to the rural area where she lived. his parents where too busy to visit every weekend and so kihyun took that responsibility onto himself. 

every time he would say "grandma! how about i live with you?"

and every time his grandma would give a hearty laugh before stroking his head with her wrinkly hands, both knowing it wasn't possible but still wanting the thought to be there.

kihyun arrived at the train station that had only one platform and a few people waiting. he dusted off some debris on the old wooden chair before he plopped into it. he quickly jumped back up when he heard a loud grunt from the chair. 

he carefully sat down again not wanting the chair to break under him. 'did i gain too much weight this month?' he thought to himself as he cautiously felt his tummy area.

kihyun had never in his 17 years of life been confident with himself. he always thought that he was too short, his body too plump, his voice too scratchy and his face ugly.

he was an outsider at school too. he had a few close friends but together they were labelled the 'nerds' or 'unpopular' people. however even though kihyun was smart and got straight As, his friends jooheon and minhyuk were not. they were just scared of judgement, were more introverts than extroverts and liked to keep to themselves instead of being associated with all the gossipy people at school.

kihyun massaged his arms as he looked down at the numerous bags he had been carrying. his grandmother would give him bags full of food and other necessities every time he visited. he would have thought that carrying so much each week would make him stronger yet it didn't. that was another thing kihyun didn't like about himself. he wasn't strong both physically and mentally with people calling him a 'pussy' at school sometimes. 

the sound of the speakers alerting everyone of the incoming train sounded and kihyun picked up the bags as he waited for the doors to open. the journey would be quite long - 3 hours as it was an all-stop service with kihyun's stop being the last one. 

he stumbled a little as the train started moving before he could sit down. he quickly put the bags on a seat before sitting down. another thing he didn't like about himself - he was quite the clumsy one.

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kihyun could feel himself being shaken. a firm hand on his shoulder as a voice spoke to him. another rougher shake made him open his eyes as he slowly took in his surroundings.

he rubbed his eyes as he realised he was still on the train and he slowly looked up at the person that had woken him. he stared for a bit as he slowly recognised the person before falling into the person's mesmerising eyes.

"hey...this is your stop right?", the deep voice hit kihyun in the face and he immediately snapped out of it.

"you're kihyun right? from busan high school", shownu asked as he stared down at the small boy.

shownu had got on the train a few stops before as he had just finished meeting some of his friends in the city. the train was pretty empty and he sat down and blankly stared out the window until the final stop was announced. getting up he waited for the old lady to pass before he walked towards the exit.

that was until he saw a small boy with light brown hair. he was so beautiful. the orange and gold rays from the sunset surrounded the boy. creating an encompassing aura around him. his head was leaning to the side as he slept, allowing shownu to take in all of kihyun's features.

shownu stood in awe as he registered kihyun's milky skin that looked so soft, his brown hair that looked so fluffy, his cute yet sharp nose, his jawline that he wanted to trace and his red, plump lips.

shownu swallowed a bit as his eyes kept flicking back to kihyun's pretty lips.

as this was the last station, the train would stay for a long time before it would move again and shownu wanted to use that full hour to appreciate kihyun's natural form.

he knew. shownu knew the boy was kihyun. how could he not? it was the boy that made his heart flutter every time they made eye contact at school.

unbeknown to everyone, shownu had a little crush on kihyun. they had been in the same class last year and shownu would always find himself looking at the boy who was either concentrating on the teacher or his work book. his eyes would scrunch up a little when he was concentrating, nose would also scrunch up whenever he didn't understand anything. kihyun would also bite his lip slightly when he got really into his work.  

shownu who sat at the back of the room had observed kihyun's every small movement in class. the way his eyes crinkled when his friends cracked a joke, the way his fluffy hair that he so wanted to touch would bounce every time he moved his head and the way the boy would always avoid his eyes.

this lead to shownu thinking that kihyun didn't like him. it wasn't that much of a far fetch because the group of people shownu hung out with were the 'popular' group. that group consisted of a lot of people - the good and the bad. and some were the ones that liked to, as they said "tease" the fragile boy. so in shownu's mind, it was a given that kihyun didn't like him.

shownu was interrupted when a horn from another train sounded making him frown a bit. he was never startled by anything. that was just the way he was. very calm and peaceful.

clearing his throat,he leaned down as he carefully shook kihyun. kihyun didn't open his eyes and so shownu shook him a bit harder as he said in his low voice "wake up".

after kihyun woke up and finally was able to register the things that had happened, a light pink painted his cheeks and he averted eye contact with the taller male in front of him. he was only able to nod to the question shownu had asked him as he tried to calm himself down.

kihyun quickly grabbed the bags next to him as he got up. the two of them walked towards the open doors of the train, shownu in front and kihyun stuggling behind him.

shownu had looked back as soon as he got out of the train to see kihyun waddling towards him his hands full with the multiple bags in his hands. 

"uh, thanks for that s-shownu", kihyun said stuttering on the taller males name from his shyness.

shownu just nodded as he scratched his head a bit. even though shownu was popular and was the heartthrob of the school because of his looks, body and dance skills, inside he was still an awkward and innocent boy.

"uh yeah um, yeah! i'll get going now. uh bye shownu", kihyun said as he mentally slapped himself for sounding so dumb in front the the shownu.

shownu watched the shorter boy waddle off as he struggled with the bags, stopping every 5 metres to take a rest and then waddling off again.

so that he couldn't take back anything, shownu quickly ran up to kihyun who hadn't gotten very far.

"let me help you"