Beys POV
10:45am
I got into my car driving to the cliff. It had another nightmare and didn't want to go back to sleep. I got out putting my hoodie over my head and my hands into my pocket. I walked over to the edge looking down at the river. Watching the water hit the rocks. Sometime I wish I would have died Instead of my mom. People needed her. Not me. I'm useless.
I walked back to my car before turning and running off the cliff. Hitting the rocks and water below.........
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(Going to the cliff is something she does in a different book in my drafts, I got my books mixed up. In the other book she always went to the cliff to clear her mind so just act like that's what she does in this book)
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I jolted out of my bed hitting the floor. Another dream... i looked over and saw Nicki turn over still sleep. I took a deep breath before getting up and going into the bathroom. I ran my hands over my face and looked into the mirror. The sessions with Nicki have been going good so far and our relationship. I try to forgive myself but it's hard when I keep having dreams like that.
I grabbed a hoodie and my car keys heading to the cliff. I got out putting my hoodie over my head and my hands into my pocket. I walked over to the edge looking down at the river. Watching the water hit the rocks. Sometime I wish I would have died Instead of my mom. Just because I know people like Solonge, my dad and others needed her. I walked back before turning back to the cliff taking a look at the cliff and got into my car.
It was now 11:35 and the sun was rising. I stopped by Shipley's to get Nicki some breakfast. I pulled up into the drive way, got out grabbing the food and heading to the door. I unlocked it and carried the food inside. I placed it on the counter and went upstairs and saw Nicki laying down under the covers watching Spongebob.
"Aye Nicki I got donuts downstairs" I said walking over to her and giving her a kiss on her forehead.
"Thanks bey" she smiled. She pulled the covers back and started to get up but immediately failed. I put in work last night.
I snickered and Nicki shot me a look. I stopped and walked over to her. She held her arms out for me to pick her up and I did. She rapped her legs around my waist and I carried her down stairs. I sat her on the island, grabbed a plate and gave her 2 glazed donuts out the box.
"What do you want to do today"
"I don't know, what do you want to do?"
"What ever you want to do" she took a bite out of her donut before looking at me and smiling.
"Ouuuu can we go to the Carnival?!"
"Sure finish up and go get dressed" she nodded and continued eating her donuts. I walked upstairs heading to Kelly's room.
"Aye Kelly!" I opened her door and saw her kissing some guy.
"Damn bey, do you knock?"
"Damn Kelly, Do I care? No. Me and Nicki are going to the carnival if you wanna come get ready we'll be heading out by one. If you not ready we leaving your ass" I walked out and went to get ready.
I went into the room and Nicki was already in the shower. I went into my closet to find something to wear. I laid it out on the bed before stripping down and getting into the shower with Nicki. I quietly walked into the restroom and slid the door open to the shower.
Nicki was washing her hair so her face was being hit with water. I closed the door and wrapped my arms around Nicki. She quickly turned around and elbowed me in the stomach.
"Shit Nika!"
"OH MY GOSH BEY! I'm soooo sorry" she said covering her mouth and reaching for me.
"What the fuck was that for"
" you can't just be sneaking up on me like that bey"
"Damn you hit hard as fuck"
"Im sorry"
"It's okay princess. L-Let's just get ready" I said standing up straight still in pain. We washed each other off before stepping out the stepping out after 45 minutes.
We both got dressed and headed headed downstairs. Kelly was at the door talking to her "boyfriend"
"Kelly in or out you letting bugs in!" She squinted her eyes at me stepping outside. I shook my head and headed into the kitchen to grab the keys. Niki quickly ran ahead of me and grabbed them first.
"That's for getting the keys for me Nicki" I smiled snatching the keys out of her hands.
"Nooooo bey I'm driving" she said trying to get the keys. I held them above my head as she numbed to get them.
"Bey it's not funny"
"Yes it is" I laughed. She finally gave up and stumped upstairs. I put the keys down and followed behind her. She walked into my room and shut the door, locking it.
How she gonna lock me out my own room 💀
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NEW BOOK OUT!!!!!!!!
Okay so the ending was supposed to have more but I didn't have time and I wanted to update this so it is what it is 🙄
