I dropped Layla off back to Solo's early because I didn't want her to come with me to see my therapist.
So I'm on my way to Miss.Minaj office for my appointment and today really isn't a good day the day I made my appointment I forgot that it was also the day my mom passed.
"Hey Beyoncé here for Minaj?"
"Yup"
"Alright go on in" Tamar said smiling. I walked in and Nicki was typing on her computer.
"Hey Bey"
"Hi" i said dryly.
"How you been?" She said now looking at me.
"Fine I guess" I said shrugging my shoulders. She looked as if she was studying me before nodding.
"So let's bet started. your mother seems to be the main topic because she passed is that correct?" I nodded.
"How long has it been?"
"Today makes 10 years"
"Oh okay, do you often visit her grave?"
"Haven't been there since her funeral"
"And it's been 10 years?"
"Yup"
"And why not"
"Because I can't handle it" I said holding back tears.
"It's been 10 years though"
"I know I just told you that." She just looked at me.
"Alright so last time you said you think for fun because you stopped doing the old things." I nodded
"Why'd you stop?" I took a deep breath before talking.
"After she passed I became very emotional....everywhere I went brought back memories so I stopped going places. At one point I just stayed in the house until my niece was born and I started going to stores, places to eat but I still never go out to party's or clubs."
"Okay and you think for fun. What do you think about?"
"where would I be if she was here, where would she be if I would have listened....what if it was me..."
NickiPOV
She hasn't been to her moms grave 10 years! I can't even go a day without talking to my mom, so you can forget 10 years! I stood up grabbing my keys and purse.
"Lets go"
"Where we going?"
"To your mothers grave" she looked like she seen a ghost.
"N-n I can't I hold you I can't handle it!" She said with anger in her voice.
"Beyoncé your coming."
"No im not" she said taking a run for the door.
"Yes you are" I said pulling her back. She tried to squirm out of my grip until I popped her like she was a child.
"Stop it, you going I'm the therapist I know what I'm doing." I gritted through my teeth. She looked at me clenching her jaws. I opened my door, locked it, and we headed to my car.
"What grave is she at"
"Olivewood cemetery" she said mumbled I looked over to her and she was Already crying. I sighed and continued looking at the road. We made it here, I got out and she stayed inside the car still looking out the window. I went to her side opened the door and pulled her out. She sniffed and I followed her to her mothers grave. It was one of those tombstones that has a picture to it.
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"In the living memory of Célestine (Tina) Ann Beyincé- Knowles. Mother, daughter, wife, friend"
Bey stood there silently crying.
"I'm guessing they called her Tina?" She nodded, well here goes nothing.
"Hi Mrs.Knowles I'm Nicki Beyoncé's therapist. She been having rough times lately and needs your help, she tells me this is her first time seeing your grave" I turned to Bey. "Talk to her you doing this doesn't make you crazy I promise." She hesitated before walking closer and sitting in the grass.
"I'm sorry" she cried. "It's all my fault I should have listened to you." She sobbed putting her face in her hands.
"I'm sorry I didn't visit you sooner, I'm sorry I was the one who chose the beach. I'm sorry I chased after the fish, I'm sorry I'd don't stay in the sand! I'm sorry, I'm sorry" she repeated I'm sorry over and over again crying harder at each word. I soon walked over to her, got on my knees and rapped my arms around her neck from behind. She quickly turned around when she felt me and hugged me. She cried harder into my chest and squeezed me tight.
"She forgets you, she never had a reason to not forgive you because it wasn't your fault." I whispered while holding and rocking her, As she continued to cry.
