Crybaby's P.O.V
"Mom! Do I have to wear this? I swear this frilly dress makes me remember my birthday", I sigh.
I swear that day was hell. My most awful memory ever.
{Flashback}
"Do you have to go mum and dad? Even Halsey too?", I suddenly panic.
"Sorry hun, we have to. Just invite your friends over and have fun"
"B-But-"
"Have a happy birthday, sis. I'm sorry I couldn't say. I really wanted to. Enjoy! I want the details later!", she smiles and follows my mum and dad to the car I watch them as they drive away leaving me in this house with all the decorations.
They cannot be funded.
I had to celebrate my birthday alone! How much more depression was I going to suffer!?!
I almost pull my hair out in frustration. I take the stroller and push it around like I'm playing around with it.
Then I invite people to my birthday party and sit.
And sit.
And sit.
And sit.
After a couple of hours I can't take it anymore.
I pretend to play with my balloons. Making a dog. I try to play my board games but nothing works at all.
I see red.
I feel the familiar substance in my eyes again. Those drops of water begin drowning me as a sob breaks out of me. I let my tears drop free.
They call me crybaby for a reason.
But. I was the innocent one!
I begin raging.
I rip off the heads of my stuffed animals and place the stuffing in my mouth. I spit it out and choke out another sob again. I can't do this. I just can't. I bring the cake and sit on the floor. I smash it in pieces while I cry. I pass out for a few minutes and get up. I hold my breath and get my lighter.
I put my house on fire.
Then I get the replacement cake and sit down at the table with the fire behind me.
I grab my lighter again and get out my cigarette and take a whiff of my smoke. Then I smoke.
{Flashback end}
That day was crazy for me. I still remember it to this day. I remember how awful and lonely I felt. No one knows that but me.
This is my secret.
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"You don't realize how much pain someone's heart holds till they break down their walls to let you in and take a glance at their heart" - BrokenLife17
;(
I would make it smile but all my pain has refused to do so.
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