Taehyung's POV:
I had walked in my room and saw Suga on the floor. I take a napkin and give it to him asking him if he's okay.
He spoke to me harshly making me feel bad for asking but he apologizes.
He talks about not being loved. He was talking to me like I was his best friend not as if I was one of his band mates.
He was crying. He was feeling emotions. He wasn't being suga. He was being Min Yoongi.
"Suga-hyung." I started to ask.
"Why do you always act cool?" I questioned.
"I don't know it's just an instinct." He lied.
I knew what was going on, but he lied to me. I know what he does and why, but he doesn't want me to see that side of him.
So I push it off to the side acting like I don't know what's really going on with him. I just nod and leave him in the room.
I pass by Jungkook's room and see Jimin with him. I go in and sit on Jungkook's bed.
They were playing video games.
"What? No invite?!" I say pretending to be hurt.
Jungkook passes me a controller as we play on the console.
Time passes quickly and it already becomes midnight. I turn off Jungkook's tv.
"Hyung!" He whined.
"Go to sleep you pabo." I whispered.
Jimin had already fallen asleep.
What does Yoongi see in him? I mean Jimin is cute and all but why would he fall in love with him?
I sighed as I walked out of Jungkook's room.
"Goodnight!" The maknae says as I shut the door.
I go to the living room and see Jin eating Ramen. I prepare mysekf some and sit next to him.
We slurp it all up and then throw out the cup.
"Aren't they cute?" Jin said talking about Jungkook and Jimin.
"Yeah I guess." I murmered.
I got up and went back into the room. I turned off the light and layed down. As I was playing a game on my phone I heard yoongi whimpering.
I got up and layed down next to him hugging him. He calmed down but then he began whimpering again.
This time he woke up out of breath sweating and crying.
I hug him tighter, trying not to crush him.
"Hyung.. I'm here." I say as he continues crying.
He thanked me and as soon as he calmed down I went back to my bed. Pretending to fall asleep.
I heard footsteps going towards the bathroom.
I opened my eyes waiting for him. Waiting to hear his cries knowing what he was doing.
He walks out of the bathroom and lays down. I hear his soft cries. My heart aches hearing the soft cries of my hyung.
I know what you just did Yoongi.
As soon as i hear his soft snores I get up and turn on my flashlight.
I go towards him and lift up his right sleeve.
Nothing.
I lift up his other sleeve and see red horizontal lines on his wrist. The fresh cuts still bleed.
I get a small towel and wet it. I lift up his sleeves again and start softly dabbing the bloody spots.
As soon as the bleeding stops I take the towel and hide it in the laundry basket making sure it isn't noticeable.
Who knew what he would do if he found out that I knew his secret.
I go to the kitchen and get two water bottles. I place one on his side of the night stand and place one on my side.
Knowing he wakes up at the same time every night dehydrated after all those tears he has cried.
I go to the bathroom and turn on the light. I take out the razor he thinks he has hidden and take it. I take out the box of razors too. I go to the kitchen and throw them in that trash can knowing he would look for them in our trash can.
I go back to the room and see him still sleeping.
Why did you do it?
I enter the bathroom again.
I see blood drops on the side of the bathroom sink. I try holding back my tears but I couldn't. He was hurting himself. It wasn't because of Jimin.
I figured that out before he did. He did it out of feeling unloved, out of loneliness, out of his own pain.
I whiped my tears as I go back out and sit next to him on his bed. I caress his cheek and place his head on my shoulder.
Please stop. I need you to be strong. I need you to be alive.
I need you to see that I'm here for you and won't leave. Please I need you to...
I need you to see that I love you.
