Contemptress

Chapter 14

Ryan drove me to go pick up my car before heading to the studio. I quickly thanked him as I got out of his car and into mine. As soon as I got in my car and closed the door I laid my head on the steering wheel and just screamed. "God that felt good", I said as I turned on the engine and headed straight to my apartment to change and freshen up. I walk in to my apartment and look around at my very Halloweeny decor and smile to myself, "damn I have good taste." I quickly walked through the living room and into my bedroom. I stripped down and change into a baggy off the shoulder Marilyn Manson shirt with a pair of black skull leggings and my signature combat boots. I walk into the bathroom to see the damage from all the crying and medicated sleep and I almost jump at what I see in the mirror. Makeup smeared all over my face and red bags under my eyes and hair going everywhere. "Ugh how did Ryan stand seeing me like this?", I question as I quickly run a brush through my hair as I spray it with water. Once I get it combed out I throw it up in a messy bun and start washing my face. Once I remove all the smeared tear stained streaks from my face I do a small wing and apply some mascara and chapstick. I quickly take out my contacts and throw my glasses on as I head back out the door. As soon as I reach the studio I lay my head back down on the steering wheel and start taking deep breaths as my mind automatically goes to Chris and I don't know how to feel. On one hand I'm excited and it feels like all the butterflies are about to burst from my stomach but on the other hand I feel extremely... uneasy? I can't exactly come up with the words for how I feel and thanks to that asshole and that I bitch my anxiety is running rampant and I don't know how to feel about anyone anymore. Hopefully I don't send the wrong message, hopefully I dont fuck up, I unbuckle my seatbelt. No, Chris isn't like Ronnie, I open the door and get out, Did I not see the way Chris looked at me yesterday? Plus I gave him my number and he gave me this stupid hickey that I'm beyond glad Ryan didn't question me about and plus he said he was excited for me to be here. I take a deep breath as I walk into the studio and look for Jonathon. The text said to go to the same room as we were in yesterday, so hopefully this means I'll be working mostly with Motionless. I smile to myself as I walk down the hallway and grab the handle to the same door that lead me to meet the man of my dreams, hopefully this room works the same magic it did yesterday. As soon as I open the door the room seems empty except for a couple making out on a rolly chair, "sorry!" I say as I see them pull apart from being startled. I begin to step out of the room until I notice who the man is, "Chris?"