I walk in the front doors of Asher Middle School. It smells like BO and axe body spray it's nasty. I step into the cafeteria and the loud obnoxious talking turns into a quite murmur as soon as the door shuts. Every one is staring at me some are even pointing. I don't understand why everyone is staring I try to think but I can't come up with anything so I walk down the steps and sit down at a table throw my bag on top and rifle trough it for the cliff bar I brought. People are still staring but I don't care I eat then I walk to the bathroom the door swings open before my hand even touches it two girls wearing basically the same outfit jeans a pink top and Birkenstocks walk out giggling . As soon as they see me they give me the death glare and walk off flipping their hair. The bathroom is filled with girls gathered around the mirrors whispering and giggling I go into to bathroom stall and set down my bag I grab out my phone and text Alex my best friend from back home I say :
" dude this is such a shit show everyone is staring at me like I'm a freak I want to go home so bad I miss you I love you so much have a good day I won't obviously." I walk out of the stall and notice all the girls are leaving I go to the mirror and fix my hair and examine my outfit light blue jeans a long pink and white sweatshirt and some high top converse. I think I look okay I really don't know why everyone was staring I hear the bell ring and walk to class. It sucks being a new ninth grader because everyone has already been here for two years and they all have friends and are not looking for new ones. My first class is math and just my luck I walked into the wrong fucking classroom I realized my mistake three minutes into class and my face was burning with embarrassment I get to my actual class and notice I'm not the only one who made the mistake of being late to Mrs.Jannets class. Another girl is standing outside of the door her face as red as a cherry tomato which I assume that's what I look like. I say "did u go to the wrong class too ?"
I'm pretty sure she didn't know that I was even standing there because when I said that she kind of jumped like I scared her she frantically replied
"Huh? Oh ya I went into an English class and I don't wanna go in everyone will look at me, I don't like being looked at."
She was talking really fast I could tell she was new and really nervous too I jokingly replied
"Everyone has been staring at me all day"
"Really me too right as I walked in I thought it was weird I think I look fine but I guess there must be something wrong with me."
"Oh my fucking god same...oh sorry excuse my language." I say not knowing if she was innocent or not she giggles and says
" no it's totally fine I cuss more than a sailor"
Omg thank god im not the only new kid here! I'm really hoping this girl won't find friends so that we can hangout so I'm not just a loser. I realize now we are both just staring at the shut door terrified I don't want anyone to look at me either but I work up the last bit of courage I have and say
"Let's go inside who cares if they look"
I grab her wrist and she is hesitant but she follows me up to the door and before my hand touches the knob I take a deep breath and quickly open it and step in. Everyone looks to the back of the class where me and this girl are standing. everything is quiet and I heard a guys voice yell
"hey look there're holding hands!"
I forgot I was still holding on to her wrist and I was grabbing it really hard from fear. she didn't seem to notice until he said that. both our faces got redder if that's even possible and I let go as fast as I could and we both just sat there until the teacher pointed to us and said "you must be the new students so which one of you is miss hall?"
The girl said in a quiet squeaky voice "that's me"
and slightly raised her hand
"So I guess that makes you Armani Anderson." she says to me
"Well the two of you will be sitting next to each other and will also be partners in the assignment that I have already explained to the whole class"
The teacher said obviously annoyed " come see me after school and I will explain it to the both of you now take your seats"
We sat down as the teacher told us about the rules and showed us the school video about acceptance of others and why to not bully. The whole time all I could think about is the girl sitting next to me I want to know like what's her name, is she the only other normal person in this school, are we going to become friends? The rest of the day was terrible I mean the only good thing is I had that girl in three of my classes I now know her name is Grace and she's really funny. we go back to Mrs.Jannets class after school she tells us we will be working together on a year long assignment and will have to see each other out side of school to get it done. I am actually kinda excited for this because I get to get to know grace and maybe we can be friends. That night I go home and tell my mom about grace and about how the whole school was filled with self centered rich assholes.
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Stained wrists
Random(TRIGGER WARNING) if suicide of self harm triggers you don't read A girl named Armani lives in a world of sadness and pain; if that wasn't bad enough she has to move away from her only two friends in the whole world, because of her mothers new job...
