.:I'm Just Another Broken Hearted Girl:.

chapter 1

Chapter 1:

Saturday

I never thought I'd see the day we grew apart. This emptyness inside my my heart,or what's left of it anyway,just won't go away. I can't believe it. I loved him. With everything I had. And he. . dumped me for a easy chick with fake boobs,lip injections,and bottleblonde hair. But I guess I can see it all clearly now,he never gave a damn about me. He said he loved me. . .but if that were true he wouldn't have left me. I don't know how this could have happend. How DID this happen? We were perfect. I gave him my all. I gave him all the love I possibly could. There wasn't anything I wouldn't/could't/didn't do for him. What does she have that I don't? And everything I have is natural. I slept with him. When I said I'd do anything for him,I had to prove it. He broke my heart. He broke me. And I can't be fixed. A sob escaped from within me as I thought back to what happend Thursday.

---Thursday [The Worst Day Of My Life]---

''So what are you going to wear for your date?'' My best friend Lucy asked me. ''I don't know yet. Help me find something.'' I said. We were laying on my bed listening to music and supposedly doing homework. ''I don't even know why you go out with Seth. He's a jerk.'' She hated Seth. They don't get along. That's actually an understatement. ''But he's my jerk.'' I said with a smile. She rolled her eyes and helped me pick out my outfit for my date with the love of my life. It took us about an hour to find something but it worked out pretty good. Lucy was sure the outfit would go perfect with my red hair and emeraled green eyes.[SlideShow Of Outfit && Maria && Seth] ''What time is Seth picking you up?'' Lucy asked me. ''6:00.'' I answered. ''It's 5:00 right now. You better take a shower.No take a bubble-bath.You should relax. I'll get out the make-up,jewelry,and accessories.'' I hugged her,''What would I do without you,Luce.'' She hated him,but she had to make me perfect for our date. ''You'd be lost without me,babe.'' I laughed and went to the bathroom. I fill the tub with hot water and poured in some bath beads. I stripped out of my clothes and slipped into the tub. During my bath,Seth was all I could think about.

Seth and I have been dating for 7 months. I love him so much. I'll never forget the day he told me he loved me.[FlashBack]- It was after the football game,instead of riding home to with the other cheerleader Seth told me he'd drive me home. I was waiting for him to come out of the boys locker and Erik came out of the lock. ''Hey Maria.'' He greeted me. ''Hey Erik. . .'' He's my ex-boyfriend. I broke up with him because he has a drinking problem and he wouldn't quit. ''What are you doing? You're too pretty to be standing out here all alone.'' I blushed. He was charming. That's one of the reason I used to be with him. ''I'm waiting on Seth.'' I told him. The look on his face told me I shouldn't have said that. ''So you dumped me for Seth?'' He yelled at me angerily. I smelled achohol on his breath. Some people never change. ''No Erik. I dumped you because of. . .'' I couldn't find the strength to be mad at him because he was so close to me and he was drunk and angry. I've been down this road with him too many times. ''Because of Seth!'' Erik yelled again. He had finally pissed me off,''No because of how your acting right now!'' I screamed in his face. The next thing I know,I felt something hard hit me in the face. I cried out and held my face with my hands and sunk to the ground. Tears slipped down my face. It wasn't because of the blow I just recieved. I was because of the pain that came with just being around Erik. How could someone who loved you hurt you? His drinking problem was just the small little error he had. His main problem:when he was mad,he was. . .mean.

I looked up at Erik,''And that's why.'' I whispered. The look on his face was of many:sad,lonley,disappointed,angry,ashamed. ''Maria. . .I didn't. . .I didn't too hit you. . .I just lost it. . .I'm sorry.'' Erik fell to his knees and grabbed my arm,begging me to get up. I jerked my arm from his grasp,''Don't touch me.'' I shreiked. He grabbed my arm again,this time harder. ''Get up.'' He said viciously throught his teeth. My anger took over me,my right hand connected with his cheek. A loud smack erupted. It kinda gave me a smug feeling. I heard him growl. Yeah,he actually growled! Erik grabbed both of my shoulders and shoved me down,so that I was lying flat on my back. I knew what was going to happen next. I closed my eyes because I knew there was nothing I could do. ''You really shouldn't have done that,Maria. Now it's my turn. I'm gonna give you what Seth never can. You remember how this goes,don't you? You're used to I'm sure,with that pick of a step-father.'' Erik knew everything about me. I had put up with all of shit because I loved him. My step-father. . .he and Erik have alot in common. Ask my mom. I felt the anger rise as he brought back memeories I've worked so hard too keep out. I pulled up my left knee and connected it with his groin. I heard him groan,and then I felt his hands wrap around my neck,''No! Erik! Please. .Erik. .Dont'' I shreiked and sobbed.

And then next thing I know I saw Seth kick Erik on the side.''What the hell,man!''Seth yelled angerily. Erik landed beside me,instead of on top of me.I heard him groan. Erik got up,holding his side. He shot me a menecing look and then he hobbled off.I sobbed and Seth pulled me into his arms. I dug my face into his broad shoulder and cried so hard my body shook. ''Hey. .it's alright.I'm here now. I'm sorry.'' I heard his voice crack at the end. Why is he sorry? Seth helped me up and he lead me to his car. We drove in silence. I had finally quit crying. We pulled over on the side of the road. I looked into Seth's blue eyes. ''I am so sorry,Maria.'' He said. Tears forming in his eyes. ''What are you talking about Seth? Why are you sorry? It's not your fault.'' I told him. He shook his head and then his fist collided into the stering wheel. ''I should have been there. I shouldn't have took so long. I should've been there to protect you.'' He said,his teeth were gritted and his fist were clenched.

I laid my hand on his shoulder,''Seth. .you did protect me. Don't blame yourself. Erik. . .is Erik.'' And he always will be Erik. Seth grabbed my hand from his shoulder and held it in his own. He looked into my eyes and said,''I love you,Maria.''

Someone banging on the bathroom door,brought me back to reality. ''Hey hurry up! It's 5:30.'' Dammit. I climbed out of the tub and slipped on my robe. I walked into my room and Lucy threw me down into a chair. ''Jeez,you took forever.'' She complained. ''Sorry.'' I apologized. She immediatly began doing my makeup. I didn't even look in the mirror when she was finished. I threw on my clothes we picked out and then someone knocked on the door. My sister Amanda poked her head in the door,''Ooh hot date tonight?'' She asked me. I nodded and smiled,''Seth's taking me out to dinner.'' Amanda walked in,''Let me fix your hair,jeez kid.'' She blowed dried it,til it was dry. And then she put it in huge curlers. This took a while. Lucy walked down stairs and then 5 minutes later she came running back to my room out of breath,''The demon is here. I let him in. He's waiting for you.'' Amanda took out the rollers and then I took a last look in the mirror. For some reason,I had a feeling something bad was gonna happen.

I walked down stairs and Seth was standing there waiting for me. He looked amazing. He smiled as he saw me. But the look in his eye told me something was wrong,''Hey cupcake.'' That was his little nickname for me. I smiled and I hoped I was wrong. He grabbed my hand and kissed my cheek. Lucy made a gagging sound,Amanda hit her arm and said,''Don't stay out too long.'' I lived with my sister now. I got away from the life I hated for so long. Seth lead me to his black camaro and opened the door for me. He was so sweet.

---After Dinner---

We sat in the car for a moment. Neither one of us saying anything. All through dinner he was so tense. We barley said anything to one another. I don't know what's going on with him. But I've worked to hard to keep him happy. I won't lose him. I reached over and kissed him. He seemed suprised. He kissed me but I could feel him holding back. Finally I gave up trying to please him. I sighed and a tear fell. I looked out the window. ''Maria,don't cry. Please don't.'' I heard Seth say. My hand was holding my forehead. ''What's wrong Seth? Tell me. Please. Is it me? Did I do something?'' My voice quavered. Seth sighed,''Maria it's not you. It's never you. It's just. . .it's me. Completely me. You didn't do anything. Right now. . .right now just isn't a good time for us to be together.'' I gasped. I didn't expect this. I didn't want this. ''Seth. . .'' I reached out for him,he grabbed my hand and held it. ''You're cheating on me. Aren't you?'' My voice became stronger. But I didn't know where the strength came from. Because I felt like my world was falling apart. ''I didn't mean for any of this to happen.'' Seth said. Another tear slide down my face. His thumb wiped it away,''Don't cry,Maria. You'll ruin your make up.'' But I didn't care. I slapped his hand away in anger. Seth seemed shocked. My anger got the best of me. I lashed out and slapped Seth across his face. His eyes were wide and he looked like he couldn't believe I had just hit him. ''How could you do this to me?! To us?!'' I screamed,tears flowing. ''I'm sorry.'' He told me. There were tears in his eyes as well. ''You're choosing her over me?'' But I already knew the answer. Seth grabbed my face with both hands and kissed me. I kissed back with all I had. Tears fell freely as I knew this would be our last kiss ever. I pulled away with a sob. Seth looked away and I thought I saw a tear roll down his beautiful face. ''I'm gonna give her my heart. But don't think I won't ever look at a sunset again and not think of you.'' His voice cracked. Another sob escaped my throat. ''Seth. .why did you this to us? We were suppose to be the ones that were gonna be together forever.'' My voice broke. ''I'll love you my whole life.'' He said. I looked at him and his eyes were red. I touched his face and stared into those eyes that saw through my heart and soul. I dropped my hand and opened my door. I heard Seth calling my name but I couldn't go back, I just couldn't.