If there is no Bigbang

Part 2

"Everything I do is top!

My hair, my face, my body is top!

My voice, my dance, my acting is top!

Yeayh~ I am Top!"

Seunghyun rapping his self-compose song to himself. He breaths in and out several times trying to gain composure within his mind. This is it! Today is the day. He going to ask Daesung out on a date and then tell him about his feeling. He got a huge crush on Daesung since their trainee time. And now after 10 years of being just friend, he wants more. Heck, even that stupid maknae manage to make their grumpy leader fall head over heels for him so how come he, the visual of Big Bang, cannot get himself that smiling angel as his boyfriend?

Seunghyun still standing in front of Daesung's door. His heart beating so loud that he swears his ears can hear them thumping. He afraid if Daesung will reject his feeling because he knows he's going to hurt so bad and even depress if that thing really happens. He is aware of his vulnerable heart. He's easy to get upset if people tease him, let alone reject his feeling. But he still determines to do this or else things will go nowhere between him and Daesung. He tries to ease his nervousness by rapping that silly song again, a weird habit that he does to gain his self-confident. This time he even adds his signature bingu's dance.

"Everything I do is top!

My hair, my face, my body is top!

My voice, my dance, my acting is.."

"Top-hyung!"

Seunghyun freeze on his spot. Daesung stand in front of him with amuse face. Seems like he's too immerse in his 'ritual' that make him not realize Daesung already open the door.

"Err..hi?"

Daesung laughs at Seunghyun's greeting. Seriously, he saw his hyung mumbling in front of his door several minutes ago from his CCTV. Then he goes to the door to open it and then he hears that weird lyric also that awful (but kinda cute) dance. "What are you doing here hyung?" Daesung ask, still laughing.

Seunghyun instantly smiles to see his beloved face. He likes to hear Daesung's laugh. It's so cute, just like a music in his ear. He even can hear the bells ringing, imagine how Daesung will laugh happily on their wedding day. And then on their wedding night...

"Hyung!" Daesung's voice snaps him back to reality.

Seunghyun shakes his head, all the dirty thought should be use as tonight's material. Now he has to deal with the real person. "I want to see you"

"Why?"

"Well..it's just that..erm..that.." Seunghyun shutters on his word. He should know what he wanted to say to the younger. Gosh, he even practices almost an hour in front of a mirror. At times like this he really hates himself. He's been called as the charismatic rapper on stage but here he is shuttering at an important time.

Suddenly he feels Daesung's hand reach his. He quite shocks at the sudden gesture. "Come inside, hyung" He let Daesung lead him to the living room.

"Are you okay? Do you read people's comment in your IG again?" Daesung ask worriedly when they sit comfortably on the sofa.

"Huh?" Seunghyun lift his eyebrows at the sudden questions.

"Did they say your painting is ugly again?"

"No"

"Did they say your art is hideous again?"

"No"

"Then did they say your new hairstyle make you look like a mad man?"

"What? No! Is that what you think?" Seunghyun's eyes wide open. Where did his dongsaeng getting all this weird idea? Oh, maybe he knows why. Last month he did make Daesung rush to his house because he was upset after reading some nasty comment people left on his Instagram about his art. His beloved is an angel. Daesung stay until late in his house, patiently hear him whining about how stupid people is for not understand his unique taste in art.