Jar of Hearts (Matthew Espinosa Fanfiction)

Chapter 8

Chapter 8

When I woke up, there was no sign of Matt so i decided to text him.
Cami: hey! Where are you babe?
Matt: I can't tell you..... its a surprise.
Cami: ugh you know how much I hate surprises!!!
Matt: not this one I promise.... gtg i love you!
Cami: okay I love you too!
I wonder what he was up too. The main reason why i hate surprises it because of John. Last time I was told there was a surprise it ended up hurting me... Sexually. This is what happened; John had called me that night to tell me to come over to his place for a surprise. During that time I was excited.. I thought that maybe he was going to ask me it to go to dinner with him, but no. It was the complete opposite. When I got there I knocked on the door to find John in his boxers. "Come in." I remember him saying. At that point I kind of looked at him and turned around. That made me scared because he then grabbed me and threw me to the wall and started kissing me everywhere while I tried to make him stop. Then he looked at me and smiled and said, "Stop what? Nobody else loves you so why not enjoy this." When I heard this I got so mad. Did he really have to say that. That was one of the reasons why I started self harming. I was so gullible and fell for anything during that time. But no when he said that I got so mad that I started punching him and kicking him and anything I could do to stop him and finally he stopped. Before he could do anything else I took my stuff and left. On the way back to my house I just started crying and couldn't believe he did this. And then I felt this sharp pain on the back of neck and touched and found out I was bleeding. That's how I got a scar there. I couldn't believe he did that. When I got home I got a text from him saying that he was sorry and that he didn't love me anymore. He said that I was a whore and that he liked Anabeth. I just started running to my room and took out the razor and started cutting. So yea that was my experience with "surprises" but whatever I trusted Matt.

Since Matt was busy, I decided to get ready for the day. When I got in the bathroom I stripped my clothes off and jumped into the shower. When I turned the water on it was the perfect temperature and I just let it hit me in the face. After my shower I blow dried my hair and straightened it. It was really warm outside so I decided to put on my sundress and put my hair into a waterfall braid. After I was done I just sat down on the bed thinking of what I could do. Wow it was boring with out Matt... I wish he was here. After about 13 minutes I got an idea. I decided to take a walk around the hotel. When I got downstairs I saw a bunch of girls surrounding Cam and Fran. I felt so bad for them so I kind of told them that Nash and all the other MAGCON boys where at Olive Garden across the street. When they heard me say that they all started running out of the door. Fran started running to me and said, "OMG thank you so much. I was going to die!" I laughed, that was a reason why I love her so much she was so funny. "Yea thanks.." Cam said looking down. I could tell he was embarrassed, but there was something else going on.. He started blushing. "Yea no big deal just trying to get you guys to have fun!" I said as I saw Fran lock her arm into his. "Okay well I'm going to go now have fun you two love birds!" I said walking out the door. When I walked out the door, my heart sank. I saw Matt, but he wasn't alone. He was kissing another girl and he was laughing with her. Why did I ever have to fall in love again. Obviously he's going to hurt me like John. Ugh I hate myself so much. I just turned around until I felt a hand on my shoulder. "Where are you going?" It was Matt. "Well I was going to walk around until I saw you shoving your tongue into another girls mouth. Was that my surprise because good job you surprised me all right." I said starting to run to my room. "WAIT! DON'T RUN AWAY LET ME EXPLAIN!" I could hear him saying. I didn't listen, I just wanted to be left alone, I couldn't believe he would do this. I thought he would help me but apparently I was wrong like usual. When I got to my room I locked the door and ran to the bed crying. Too bad I didn't bring my razor, it could have been helpful but no my stupid News Year Resolution. Why did I think I could stay strong. Nobody did like me.. What the fuck was I thinking. "Cami! Open this door and let me talk." I didn't answer. "CAMI PLEASE JUST LISTEN." I decided to give him one chance since this was the first time he screwed up. As I opened the door he tried giving me a hug but I rejected it.
"I deserved that." He said with a tear coming down his cheek. Why was he crying he's the one who hurt me. I sat on the bed and he sat next to me. "Look I have a huge explanation for what happened okay?."

As he started telling me, Cam and Fran walked in. "Oh sorry, we should go." Fran said and I nodded. "Look Cami you know I love you and that you are the love of my life right?" I kind of just looked at him and ignored. "That kiss meant nothing. It was a fan and she asked for a picture of her and I kissing. At first I told her no but then she grabbed my face and she kissed me. I tried to stop her but she started pulling me up closer and closer to her. I promise I would have stopped." "Yea but the fact is that you enjoyed it. You laughed and smiled at her after like she was your girlfriend." I said still looking down. "I'm going to be honest with you okay.... I didn't enjoy the kiss and I was laughing because she felt embarrassed after and said sorry so I wanted her to feel like I forgave her but I told her that I had a girlfriend so I didn't really like that she did that. I promise that was all that happened. I'm so sorry Cami I love you so much. " He said crying at the last few words. "Okay. Okay I'll forgive you this one time only because it was a fan and I understand I guess but don't do it again please." I said. I didn't want to loose him and I figured that I should be getting used to other girls wanting him because... I mean I understand he is cute. The only thing was that i didn't want them kissing him but whatever he said it wouldn't happen again. Hopefully that wasn't a lie. "Thank you so much I promise it won't happen again!" He said with a big smile on his face and then we started cuddling until we both got up and decided to walk around a little bit. "So what was my 'surprise' suppose to be or was that also I lie." I asked almost regretting what I said at the end. "Sorry I didn't mean to say that." I said regretting it. "No it's fine I deserve it and yea there is a surprise that I promise you'll love." I smiled and said, "Alright but I hope you didn't waste to much money on this thing." We both laughed and then is said, "No but seriously if you did I'll kill you!" His eyes widened and he looked scared and said, "wow my girlfriends a serial killer... Fun!" He smiled and then he kissed me. I knew it'd be hard to stay mad at him.