What a beautiful toy to me (AMBW BYUN BAEKHYUN)

Choice

{K A I}

He couldn't be serious...he couldn't be. There was no way that she'd say yes to that, freak. He's a fucking lunatic,....but, I couldn't do anything about her. Not even him, no, I was useless.

All I could do was listen. My body wouldn't let me move. It wouldn't let me react, and I just- Fuck, fuck it all to hell, this shit is so stupid. If I got up, nothing good would come out. She'd just look at me, like I'm the monster. Marie...I'm not, I'm not a monster. You have to see, I'm just―

"Oh."

What? What just happened?

When I came too the door'd just shut close. Who walked out? I turned around to see who it was. Angry. I was just so angry, what the hell was I supposed to do? I can't help it if she loves that mentally handicapped bitch instead of me. "Marie, where did you go?"I felt the knot in my throat swell up, harder and tighten until it was solid and lodged like set stone. I looked down at my arm, then left to the cast on my arm. I had enough. If you love him more than you love be me, then that's your problem. That's your choice. "Not good enough!" I wanted it to get out, it hurt so bad and It felt like shit because it just meant I was helpless. Fuck these. I snapped. Fuck this I threw my chair onto the ground, with my safe arm. I grabbed onto the crutch, and broke the window shattering it, clearing the front desk in the classroom. Why the fuck was I so goddamn helpless? Why me? Why was I so stupid? I yelled as loud as I could, before throwing out the chairs at the shattered window, into the outside world. I didn't care what happened to  them, I didn't care who got hurt. If I could jump down right now, and just end it all. Then I wouldn't have to feel this way, no one would give not one fuck about me not even if or until I was gone and that'd be just perfect. GO ahead break me more I deserve it. Go ahead...do your worst, destroy me, take me alive when I fall down and just watch me missing you, when I can only see your face before I fall and in my last moments. Do it, do it, so that I know I died regretting ever loving you. You're such a whore, it hurts. Then when the light turns on, it'll be over....

"KAI WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!"

"Marie? But...I thought, you―

What...what just happened. She didn't go with him? I was so happy just to see her face. But...

Did I black out again? "Are you insane!" She screamed in my faced, and started hitting me on my arm, pulverizing me more and more. It hurts...so good. "What the hell are you talking about?"
I shook my head feeling pain; this headache won't leave me alone. "Look at what you've done!"

I can't it, my head...what? But, I thought everyone was gone..what? They were all standing at the backroom staring at me so scared. Why? why did everyone keep looking at me like...

Then she stopped. Her eyes were flooded with tears. "You're such a jerk!"Marie, no, please don't say that. I don't know what I'd do without you. I didn't even notice him walking up behind her, like a shadow, and pulling her away from me as he grabbed onto her shoulders, and smiled at me. No..why are you taking her away from me? Stop Stop it...leave her alone. She's–

"Not mine."

She walked out of the door, and my mind just kept fading in and out. I could've sworn, that I just watched him kiss her...am I sick?

{ M A R I E }

"Why was he so stupid all the time?" It looked like...he wanted to jump. It was so scary, I had to stop him. He kept screaming saying that I was gone, asking where was I. And he broke everything. He needs. Help, he needs–

"Marie, so, where do you want to go ? I can take you anywhere, that your heart wants me to take you." Baekhyun said with a deep smile. He was always so happy. Today, he looked really nice.

Just as I was about to say something, he placed his hand underneath my chin, lifting it up so that all I could see was his face. Soon enough, I heard him laugh through his teeth, then lean in for kiss. I stopped him before he could do anything, backing away.

"Baekyhun...what are you doing?"

I looked down the hallway and brushed my hair back, just trying to see if anyone'd seen us.  That was so embarrassing, I could feel my body just shaking. But all the students were just casually transitioning to their lockers and heading either to their dorms or leaving the facility.

After all, it was the weekend. "I'm trying to kiss you." He said so casually, sucking out the air from my lungs. "What now?" I laughed at how straight forward he was.

The boy walked over to me and grabbed onto my shoulders gently with his hands, sliding them down to my arms, then to my wrists while he looked into my eyes all the while.

 My heart was racing. "Let's go, I want to take you home."