Him or her || joshler

Chapter 1

Tyler POV
We're at Taco Bell with Josh and Jenna now, I've noticed Josh is acting strange and sad. I've asked him multiple times what's wrong but he just ignores my question.

I get snapped out of my thoughts when Jenna asks me what I want to eat.
-" ehm pick something for me, surprise me"

I said with a small smile, I didn't want her to think something was off, I just couldn't stop thinking about Josh.

-" can you two pick out a table? I'll bring the food." Jenna asked nicely, ugh she's always so nice.

I put my hand on Josh's shoulder and smiled at him, I saw he faked a smile back.

I walked us to a table and he sat down in front of me, weird. He always sits next to me.

I checked if Jenna was on her way here, she wasn't. I thought I'd just ask him again what's wrong.

-" it's nothing, don't worry Tyler"
-" how can I not worry about you? You're my best friend." I said in a really concerned voice now. He slightly flinched at the word "best friend". What does that mean?

I opened my mouth to say something else but Jenna interrupted.
-" here's the food" she said with a smile.

I couldn't handle seeing Josh like this anymore, I just stood up and ran to the bathroom. I heard Jenna yell something to me but I didn't bother to listen.

I just broke down in the bathroom, not checking if there was someone else in there. I leaned against the wall, and I think I didn't hear the door open.

I looked in the mirror and saw Josh standing behind me. His eyes looked red and puffy. Has he been crying too?

-" hey..." he said with a soft voice, god I love his voice. Was it weird to think that about my best friend? I shook the thoughts away as Josh said something else.

-" why were you crying?"
-" I.... I'm really concerned about you Josh, and you won't tell me anything. I need to know what's going on" I said almost crying again

He sighed.
-"I can't tell you Tyler, it would ruin everything"
What could be so bad that it could ruin everything? We've been best friends for years now, doesn't he trust me?

I walked up to him and hugged him, he immediately hugged back. I've hugged him a lot before, why does this feel different now? It feels good though, it feels safe.

He broke down in my arms, I just let him. I felt really bad for him, and I couldn't help him, that was the worst.

I grabbed him by his shoulders so he'd look at me.
-" don't be scared to tell me anything okay?" I said hoping he's actually listen, I mean, everyone always says that but no one ever means it. I did.

I think I got caught up in the moment because I didn't notice our faces were only inches apart from each other.

I think I might've glances at his lips once or twice. Why would I? He's my best friend, ugh what's up with me today.

Our moment was rudely interrupted when Jenna opened the door.
-" what's happening here?" She asked kinda annoyed.

I was kinda relieved she walked in, I don't know what would've happened if she didn't.

Josh glanced at me once and then walked out, we all decided to go to the car.
-" you guys wanna tell me what happened now?" She asked with no emotion.
We were both silent, Josh looked at me with a hopeful look, I looked at him like I didn't know either.

Jenna sighed and didn't bother to ask anymore.

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