Like No Other

Smile

No matter what I experience or achieve I just can't smile. It's not that I won't, it's that I can't. It's painful and annoying, but I like to see others smile. Though it might bring me misery, a person's smile means more to me than mine ever will.

I think that's why people think I'm upset or even depressed, I tell them that's how I look that's my face.

I just don't get people, why smile? What's there to be happy about?

I feel like smiling is a waste of energy for me, why be happy about something it'll usually lead to something bad.

Every good side also has a bad side, nothing is ever just good and no one is ever just evil, there's good in everyone.

Smiling also hides the truth in my opinion, you smile most the time to cover up something you may have done...it usually never works.

If the person is smart they'll see past your facade. Some of the time my smiles are fake, I don't know why it's just easier showing people how they think I feel instead of actually telling them.

It saves a lot of questions...

I used to have a quote on my wall, the first line was:

"Smile Everyday"

I realize now that I can't, what would I be smiling for? Maybe I should've changed it to something like, "smile when you're actually happy." Guess it wouldn't make sense, then again...

Neither do I.

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