Like No Other

4 Days

I don't know what to think, half of me is ready to go back as I always am. But the other half is dreading going back to the place I wanted to be done with.

It'll be so different, I won't think about who's gonna be in my class or meeting my friends at lunch to talk about what my class is like.

I learned that college has no lunch period, I asked my sister "How am I gonna know when to eat?!"

She just shrugged telling me that was up to me.

In 4 days everything will be up to me, not my mom or anyone else.

Will I be a slacker from freshmen to senior year? Or will be the fucking scholar I know I can be?

At times I'm like fuck it! I didn't even wanna go to college at first!

But other times I ask myself, "Then what the fuck are you gonna be doing?"

This causes an arguement to erupt in my head until I just roll my eyes accepting my fate.

High School was fun, but also drama..

One thing I've decided is that I'm fling back to my "Ion give a fuck " attitude 😒 why? Well cuz who gives a fuck in college. I sure don't!😁

In 4 days I will walk through the doors of a buliding full of strangers, I don't know them and they don't know me.

I can choose to be a loner and get through these 4 years without trouble or I can make friends...

That's a hard one for me, it took me 4 years to feel comfortable with being myself in high school...can I do it in a day at college.

Of course not, but I can fucking try😉

What can I do in 4 days that I haven't done in 4 years?

Who knows, I'm weird...

Do I act normal or be myself?

Hmm... I'll do what I want.

I have 4 days to decide.

-♏