The Preacher's Son [A Jihan Fanfic]

Chapter 18

Jeonghan's P.O.V

We got back to the house at around 10:00/10:30. And. I. Was. Tired. I usually staid up a lot later than that, but I just felt strained. The only time I really felt relaxed was when I was alone with Jisoo. I didn't have to pretend to be fine. I didn't have to hide my anger. I could just let loose around him and I loved it. He never judged me, or he never showed that he was judging me.

I had put on a pair of basketball shorts and a tank top while Jisoo did the same. I was careful not to look at him. It was a little harder than expected. I mean. How hard could it be not to stare at someone. He pissed me off a little. With his stupid fucking perfect face. His stupid body. His stupid fucking personality. The way he smiled was absolutely beautiful. But that's why he made me mad.

I didn't even know if he felt the same way about me. He probably wasn't cussing every five seconds. But it didn't matter. I laid in bed while he brushed his teeth. I stared up at the ceiling picturing his stupid face in my head. God! I wanted to punch him and kiss him all at the same time. Things could be worse Jeonghan-ah. He could ignore your very existence. I thought angrily to myself.

I didn't know what I was gonna do with myself. Was he gonna sleep in the bed with me? Was I supposed to sleep on the ground? I wasn't going to make him sleep on the ground that was for sure. Would we sleep on opposite ends of the bed? I was already over-thinking. I really wanted to fall asleep in his arms, but oh what if-My fumbling brain stopped as he walked into my room.

He had a tiny bit of toothpaste left on his lip. It was cute. Stupidly cute. Why does he do this to me? I sighed. "I'm not trying," he said as he wiped the toothpaste off his face. I blinked in surprise. "Whoops," I said sheepishly. "I can't think very straight around you...Or when I think about you." He laughed at that.

He flopped onto his stomach in bed next to me. He turned his head so that he faced me. "You're almost as hot as me." I teased. He rolled his eyes. "I don't think anyone could be as hot as you," he said. His voice was earnest enough. I flopped onto my back with my head on my arms. "I agree with you." After I spoke I made a face at him.

The face didn't last long seeing as he lunged in for a kiss. I made a surprised noise, but didn't resist him. I could never resist him. I felt his teeth graze my lip and practically jumped on top of him. I pulled back and locked my door. Then I went back to kissing. I straddled his hips and knotted my hands in his short hair.

I bit his lip a little harder than I meant to, but he didn't seem to mind. He groaned sexily in the back of his throat and every part of me responded. And when I say every part. I mean every part. When that little guy stiffened I stiffened too. I knew he would probably freak out, but it was hardly my fault. His shoulders went rigid and he took his mouth from mine.

"You sure you don't think I'm hotter than you?" He slowly traced his hand from the nape of my neck to the bottom of my shirt sending shivers down my spine. "I'll let you take care of that," he said while wiggling out from under me. He pressed a hard kiss to my mouth then unlocked the door and stepped out of the room.

He wasn't even in the room and I was blushing. I had never gotten a boner that fast. I had thought I had self control, but apparently I was wrong. There was no way I could control myself around Jisoo. I just couldn't. It seemed almost impossible somehow. I wouldn't go as far as to say I was in love with him, but I felt like I loved him. I just didn't know how yet.

*****Time Skip*****

I laid curled in his arms with the tv playing in the background. His breath tickled my ear as it moved strands of my hair and I played with his hands. I traced circles on his palms or moved his fingers for no reason. He breathed deeply and slowly so I figured he had fallen asleep. He hugged me close to his chest with one arm while I played with the other.

I felt like I had never been so content in my life. I was being held by someone I loved. I wondered if he loved me. I was a rather lovable person, I felt like. I actually couldn't think of a reason not to love me. Some people would say that I was cocky, but really I was just self confident.

My self confidence was one of the things I loved most about myself. I wondered what Jisoo liked most about me. I remember asking someone what they liked best about me and they only said personality. Yeah that's touching but they were practically calling me ugly. What if he like my personality best? It wouldn't be that bad. Cause that would mean he liked something about me. Thinking positive.

I turned around and buried my face in his chest. I felt him shift slightly then he pulled me even closer than I was already. My heart slammed against my chest, but slowed down after a while. I soon fell asleep feeling content in his arms.

A/N: I'm speaking a little bit from personal experience. No matter how many times I tell myself not to I just keep staring. He probably thinks I'm creepin, but it's whatever. God but he fucking pisses me off! Whatever. It's fine. I'm fine. No I'm not. I'm done ranting now goodbye.
-peace out, Toxic