jjk's pov
04:00 pm
i texted her but she's not answering. what is she doing? she wouldn't do those stupid things right?
a thought.
i drived fastly to her house and found out that she was not there. suddenly there's a call from eunbi.
"where are you? you promised me lunch today!"
and here i am, on a lunch with eunbi, my girlfriend.
but still my mind is full of her.
is she okay?
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two days have passed, and yet there's still no news about her. i decided to visit her house once again. there was no one there. a neighbour of her told me that she moved out and left a letter for me. where did she go? why did she leave? is it all my fault?
i opened the letter,
dear, jeonggukie.
hey. it's been long since we talked right? how
are you? hope you're doing well.
hmm, i heard that you're dating eunbi! i'm so
happy for you two!
don't pretend.
i know you're not happy.
i just want to tell you that by the time
you're reading this letter, i'll probably not be there anymore right?
yeah, you left me.
i'm moving to another country. you don't
need to know where. i just need some
time. i actually tried to tell you beforehand,
but you were so busy. so i decided to just
write a letter for you.
i'm so sorry, that my stupid confession
ruined our friendship. i was stupid for
for falling for you.
no you're not.
stop blaming yourself.
i was too scared to tell you how i feel because honestly i like you too, but at the same time i also like eunbi.
i don't want our friendship to be ruined so i just picked eunbi.
but i guess, it was a wrong decision to do.
now you're not even here anymore.
oh god.
what have i done?
i should've known by how you talk
about eunbi. you look so happy
whenever you talked about her.
i'm sorry.
and when you started to have more
time for her, when you told me that
you have a date with her when i told
you that you should come over because
i was sick, i should've known. but being
the stupid me, i still have the courage to
confess to you and make a fool out of
myself.
i'm so sorry.
that day, i feel lonely and dull. you were
my first love yet also the first to hurt
me.
i'm sorry, i didn't know how you feel.
it all was okay, until you started to
ignore me. you started to leave me
behind. my parents started to fight so
often. they started coming home drunk.
and i have no one to talk to, to lean on
to. back then i have you, but now that
you're not beside me anymore, i have
no one. i was thinking that i should just
end my life. but i didn't because it's
such a dumb decision. i endured it all.
until i've had enough and decided to
leave the country.
i'm sorry that i was not there when you had your hardest time. i'm very sorry.
lastly, i just want to tell you that i love
you. and i've never regretted falling in
love with you. it was such a ride and a
lesson. and thank you foreverything
you've done for me. i love you, jeon.
i love you too.
but is it all too late?
