I used to do well in storms
The thunder was like my own personal lullaby
Shaking the house and rocking me to sleep
I had no trouble with it
The lightning was beautiful to me
Until it reminded me of the wars in my head
It was beautiful until it terrified me
Except things that terrify me are beautiful to me too
Like you
I used to be able to sleep without you
But I had terrible nightmares
Images that made it hard for me to shut my eyes in the daylight
I would sleep alone with no one there to comfort me
I cant do that now
I need you there
Specifically you
No one else makes me feel safe enough to dream
I have nightmares when you're not here
Im scared to shut my eyes
Its worse when its storming out
Reminding me of all the monsters in my head screaming to get out
Loud noises scare me
It panics me and steals my breath right out of my chest
But when I hear your voice and you talk me down from the cliff in my head its okay
You knock the air back into my lungs
You're like air after I come up from drowning inside of myself
You are my calm inside of the storm that is my head
You are my peace and quiet as the fight continues around me
You are my rest within the storm
