My True Eros ~ Victuuri Lemon

How It's Suppose To Be

*Yurio's POV*

I walked in and Victor let me be alone, didn't know why. It's not like I had anything to say. I sat down and thought of my words.

"So listen, Pig." I looked at the ceiling and closed my eyes.  I sighed and stopped thinking. Just beginning to talk.
"When you wake up... You gonna start skating again...? Will you retire? Heh.. If you two retire I would be the champion. I'd have no competion. Hah. I could win so many gold medals" I bragged but I all honesty, it would be boring. He better wake up for this year... Or ill...

I stopped my train of thought and walked out. "You're done already?" Victor asked.
"Yea... I'm going out. I'll be back maybe later tonight." I walked outside and started heading back to my hotel.
The morning light hurt my eyes and I put my hood on. The rain clouds were gone, as if it never happened.

I thought deeply, about my next move, about Yuuri and Victor. Could I even skate in this condition? I looked down and growled. That stupid pig... Is gonna cause me to retire? No way... No way in hell...

*5 hours later*

*Victor's POV*

It was already the afternoon and the visitations don't open back up til 5 pm. I waited in the waiting room constantly. I just wanted him to wake up.  I felt lost without him and I didn't know how to feel.
I coughed harshly into a tissue and looked at the blood splattered on it. I had an appointment scheduled for tomorrow...

I got up and went outside, taking my pills quickly with a small water bottle.
Today was the day...
I wanted today to be so special...
Tears began to form, and my heart ached painfully. I took out the small black box and gazed upon the ring inside.

The silver ring shined brightly, the blue and crystal white gems glimmered in the sunlight.
"Everything happens for a reason... So why do I feel so empty." The tears blurred my vision so I wiped them away quickly.

In my mind I imagined exactly how I wanted today to be.

I awoke, seeing Yuuri's beautiful face. His body snuggled against mine and my arms wrapped around him.
"Good morning, my love." I combed the hair away from his face and smiled softly.
"Good morning... Vitya.." Yuuri smiled and kissed my head. His lips were soft and felt so perfect against my forehead.

I touched my forehead, as if I could feel the kiss but, of course, it was not real.
I began to walk, towards our first destination.

"Yuuri! You must be hungry for breakfast. Why don't we go somewhere nice?"
Yuuri smiled at my request. "Only if I get a good morning kiss~!" I smirked and kissed my love deeply, making his face burst in a red blush.

My heart burned, not because of the kiss, it's the pain of never sharing that kiss.
I arrived at a nice breakfast restaurant. I remember coming here last year, I enjoyed every single bite. It was very delicious, so I wanted to share it with Yuuri.

"So this is it?" Yuuri smiled bright. "It looks so nice, Vitya. Have you been here before?"
"Yes, for the last GPF, I wanted to come here with you though" I smiled at Yuuri and walked in.

I walked in, sat at the booth the waitress assigned and order a small breakfast.  The food was delicious but either my emotions or my illness was making my tastebuds numb. The food seemed bland and I felt like I was about to regurgitate it.

"Vitya! The food is so delicious!"
"Haha, try a bite of mine~" I held up my fork with a piece of a pancake stuck to it. Yuuris lips wrapped around it and pulled off the pancake.

I got up and paid the bill, leaving the waitress a 50 dollar tip. She needs it more than me... What am I suppose to do with it now anyways? 
I walked out and headed to the next destination.

When I arrived I felt the cool breeze against me. The waves crashing down onto the sand. The children laughing and making castles. It was happy and cheerful... It was the perfect place... 
It made me feel....

Absolutely dreadful

The weather was perfect and everything seemed to fall into place... It made me yearn that today was a dream...  At this point I'd be better off in a coma too...

I rolled up my pants and took off my shoes, holding them in my hand as I walked into the cold salty water. Each wave tumbled against me and sent a shock of goosebumps up my body, along with a shiver. It wasn't from the chill water. It's the visions... The feeling that it could've came true... The feeling of the waves... Would feel better if he was here. 

"Victor! Are you ever going to get in the water?"
"Haha ok I'm coming" I jogged up to the ocean waters. I stepped in and the wet sand sunk down with my foot.
"Youre so slow! Cmon!" Yuuri laughed and grabbed my arm pulling me in deeper.
"The water is freezing! Aren't you cold?"
"A lil but you always warm me up when you're around" Yuuri smiles big and kisses me deeply.

Tears formed in my eyes and I want to collapse and sob. I wanted to let out everything...
But its not the right time.
"Today is special... Today is special... Today.. Is..." I bit my lip as I repeated the same phrase over and over in my mind.

I quickly turned and ran out of the water. The memories of Yuuri stuck to me like the sand on my feet.

"Be my coach, Victor!"

Those puppy dog like eyes... I began to cry harder from the thought.
My lips shivered and I wished to scream... My whole body felt like it wanted to fall to the ground. All I could think about how everything was suppose to go.

Everything was suppose to be perfect.

Today was suppose to be the day... 

So why isn't it...

Today is special....

Today is special....

Today is special....

Today was special....

The moon shining high in the sky...

The stars looking down on us...

The dewy grass that made the hem of our pants wet... 

The cliff hanging over the glistening water...

The ring shining brightly in the moonlight..

The blue and white gems that sparkled brightly...

His beautiful smile....

The tears forming in each others eyes... 

"Yuuri... Will you marry me?"