My True Eros ~ Victuuri Lemon

A Child's Cry

"Victor~! Victor~!!" Yuuri's moans echoed through the room. "Ahh~!! Vitya!! More! More!" The bed shook at every thrust. "Victor! Victor! I feel it coming! I-I!" Yuuris head flew back.
"Aaah~!!!"

*Victor's POV*

I awoke to a buzzing, a vibration on my right hip. "Yuurri... Stop hehe... That tickles..! Hehe..." My eyes opened. "Yuuri.." I looked around and realized I was sitting in the tub in the hotel. I sighed in dissapointment. "It was just a dream..." Too bad you didn't know it was just a dream. I poked at my member that was now sticking up high from the images plastered in my mind. Thinking of Yuuri's moans only made it worse.

The vibration began once more, my phone. I picked it up and saw it was Yuuri's mother. "It's midnight... I can't believe she's still up... She must be worried about Yuuri..." I answered the phone "Hello?"
"V-Victor.. Is Yuuri with you? He's been gone all night"
"Ah.. Yes... We rented a hotel room. Yuuri and I stayed out for too long and became too tired to drive so we got ourselves a room." I felt bad for lying to her but I couldnt bring myself to tell her the truth. Oh yea I took your son on a date and he got so wasted he couldn't even walk.
"Ah im glad he's safe. Im sorry if I woke you dear. Have a good night, Victor."
"Of course. You too."

I ended the conversation and hung up the phone. I walked out to see Yuuri sleeping so soundly. He was so beautiful. "You fell asleep with your glasses..." I walked over and removed his glasses carefully. I didn't wish to wake him, that would be bad.

"Victor~! Victor~!!" The moans from the dream echoed through my head. "Dammit..." I needed to distract myself but I didn't know how. "Your glasses are all smudged..." I sighed and got up. I headed to the sink that layed outside the bathroom door, and rinsed a soft tissue lightly, only dampening it. I wiped down his glasses then dried them off and laid them on the nightstand next to him. 

I started heading back to the bathroom to go back to sleep when I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I looked horrible, my eyes were dark and I couldn't bring myself to smile. For the first time in what seemed like forever, I felt...

Miserable.

The love of my life was naked in the bed right beside me. I could easily take him. I could make him mine. I could hear the moans that echo in my mind. What if I just woke him up and made my move? It wouldn't be hard. He could still be drunk too... It would be wonderful to feel all of Yuuri.

Lust was engulfing me and I had to snap out of it. I didn't know what to do. I felt hopeless. I started to head back to the bathroom when I felt myself break free.

"Victor..."

*Yuuri's POV*

I woke up, dehydrated and with a headache. My body felt heavy and I was burning up. I looked over to see Victor staring into the mirror that hung over the sink. Everything was blurry without my glasses but only a haze. I could see Victor's eyes, even if I was blind. He looked like he was about to cry. He turned away from the mirror and started heading to the bathroom.

"Victor..." I called out his name softly. He turned with wide eyes and looked me in the eyes.  "Y-Yuuri.. Youre awake..." I couldn't see it but I could tell Victor was crying. "V-Victor... What's wrong?"

*Victor's POV*

Why the hell did I start to cry? I was acting like Yuuri was on his death bed. I didn't understand what I felt. I wiped my tears away quickly. "I'm just tired..." I walked over and grabbed a chair and sat next to him. I kinda knew why I was crying. I just couldn't explain it.  I guess if I were to put my feelings into words all I could say is...

I loved Yuuri so much, how could I let lust take me over and make me think such horrible things. Yuuri was my student, but also the love of my life. That night when I hurt him, I was only considering my feelings. I didn't care about Yuuri. Then tonight, I considered taking him drunk. What would he think in the morning... He would hate me... He wouldn't even remember though... I felt pathetic...

*Yuuri's POV*

Victor's eyes resembled two types of people. A mother looking down at her beloved child. And the child who looked up to his mother with tears in his eyes. One covered up the other and I knew which one he tried to hide.

People always told me

Skater's hearts are as fragile as glass.

If they are so fragile, then let's fix them before they break even more.

"Victor..." I sat up in bed. "You look like you have a fever Yuuri... You should go back to bed... " He tried to push me away, but I refused to let him.

*Victor's POV*

At that moment, I felt so weak and fragile. I tried to be dominant and tried to be strong. But at that moment, Yuuri pulled me towards him and hugged me tightly. "You can cry Victor..." I felt my emotions overwhelm me and I couldn't hold it in any longer. Tears ran down my face and I sobbed into Yuuri's shoulder. Yuuri's fingers ran through my hair and combed it gently to calm to me.

"I was trying to hide my tears behind the mask of a mother. Someone who isn't suppose to cry. I tried to hide my childness yet..." I sobbed out. The words that Yuuri spoke that moment will never leave me.

"You can't be a mother before being a child right? Is it really that wrong to cry... If you never let out what you think is childish and pointless, you'll never be able to help others who feel childish and pointless..." Yuuri looked at me and smiled.

"Yuuri...I.." I hugged Yuuri tight, like a scared child. "It's ok.." Yuuri petted my head gently. I felt more and more calm yet, more and more overwhelmed by the feelings spiraling inside me. "Y-Yuuri..." I trembled as I spoke.

"I love you...I...I..I love you, Yuuri."

*Yuuri's POV*
Victor's tears soaked into my shirt and the muffled words came out from his lips. He pulled away from the hug and looked me in the eyes. "I-I love you... M-more than anything in the world...! I love everything about you! I never want you to stop holding me and craddling me... I.. I want to keep coaching you... I want to keep watching you skate...I never want you to retire, Yuuri!!" My chest felt warm and my stomach calmed. My hands didn't sweat and I didn't feel frozen. I finally understood.

I reached over and kissed Victor deeply. My body felt warm and my emotions weren't ragged. I was calm, at this moment I finally knew.

"I love you... Victor Nikiforov"