Violet White
After reading all 60 messages from Austin, I replied with a simple word. Sorry. I was waiting for his reply, he knows what I mean because we use that's our code "I'm no longer __ days clean." I was a whole 21 days clean. "I'm coming out of my cage and I've been doing just fine..." I was snapped out of my thoughts when Bradley's voice came back on.
Mr. Brightside
I'm sorry too. What did your dad do this time?
He wouldn't have would he? Shit, why am I so selfish?
Miss. Outcast
Austin, please tell me you didn't.
Mr. Brightside
Answer me first
Miss. Outcast
No, you're more important right now! Answer me please.
Mr. Brightside
No I am not. I asked first
Miss. Outcast
Yes you are!
Mr. Brightside
No! I am not!
Miss. Outcast
Yes you are! You're amazing! You're awesome! You're handsome! The list goes on, perfect can't even describe you.
Mr. Brightside
Stop that!
Miss. Outcast
Stop what? Telling the truth?
Mr. Brightside
No, stop lying to make me feel better about myself.
Miss. Outcast
I'm not lying, just stating facts that a new born would know.
Mr. Brightside
Yes you are lying because none of that is true. But all of that would fit in your description
Miss. Outcast
So I'm handsome? I never knew
Mr. Brightside
That's one of the things I like about you
Miss. Outcast
What? :$ That I'm handsome?
Mr. Brightside
No. That when there's tension that a knife can't cut, you somehow manage to break it. It really amazes me
Miss. Outcast
Thanks! If I answer your question will you answer mine?
Mr. Brightside
Yes I will
Miss. Outcast
So, do we have deal?
Mr. Brightside
Yes we do. So tell me
Miss. Outcast
It was nothing that I wasn't used to; he pulled my hair, punched my gut, kicked me, slapped me and called me some things.
Mr. Brightside
What did he call you? And, why did he do that?
Miss. Outcast
Follow up questions later. Now YOU answer ME!!!
Mr. Brightside
Yes, yes I did go to my blade.
Miss. Outcast
Why? You were 94 days clean! Why would you throw that away?
Mr. Brightside
Nuh uh, "Follow up questions later. Now YOU answer ME!!!"
Miss. Outcast
That isn't fair, using my own words against me! But fine, be that way. He called me worthless, stupid, disgusting, waste of space, mistake, he said that he wishes he never had a daughter and he said that he should've put me in an adoption center. He did it because I got an eighty on my math exam.
Mr. Brightside
You know none of that is true right? Every single worthless word that he said was nothing but a filthy lie!!!!!!!
Miss. Outcast
I guess... But now answer me. Why did you give up 94 days clean?
Mr. Brightside
I couldn't handle the fact that you were hurting yourself again, so I took your pain and converted it to me. I deserved it because I wasn't there when you needed me most
Miss. Outcast
I'm sorry
Mr. Brightside
For what? You didn't do anything wrong. So, for what? You didn't go to your blade for the second time tonight, right?
Miss. Outcast
For making you relapse, after all your hard work, you were sooo close to 100 days clean. And no, no I haven't gone for a second time to my blade; so stop worrying.
Mr. Brightside
It's okay, I was missing the feeling of the metal across my skin and the blood oozing out. I hope you don't go back for the blade for at least a month. Can you please try to stay clean? For me?
Miss. Outcast
But it's not okay, you could have made it to 100 days and eventually 365 days clean if it weren't for my stupid mistake. Just for you, if it were anyone else I'd probably say no but, I'll try for you. But, you have to try for me too, okay?
Mr. Brightside
I'm saying that it's fine so just drop it! Yay, we can make it through this; together. Yay, you better stay clean!! I'll do anything for you. I promise I'll try.
Miss.Outcast
No, I won't just "drop it" because it isn't fine, it's my fault that you relapsed!!! cx , I'll try and we will get through this together forever. Awe, I'll do anything for you too.
And that's how our conversation went on for the rest of the night.
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Sorry this chapter was super boring. If anyone is actually reading this, can you be active, please? No one actually voting or commenting was the reason I deleted my old books.
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Teen Fictiona/n 2017: this is trash and is not longer updated Two suicidal and depressed teens meet one's a boy and one's a girl, both of which are classified as 'emo'. They're total opposites is what everyone would say. She's kind He's a jerk...
