Suicidal Love

Chapter One

Before I start this story, I want to say, this is ALL FICTION. This has never happened to me, or anyone (that I've heard). Also this may be a bit triggering, I just wanted to add that.

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Violet White

I was listening to Black Veil Brides and messaging the person I consider my best friend, his name is Austin. He's really kind. If it wasn't for him I don't know where I would be, he's kept me strong and apparently so have I.

I have long natural black hair, purple eyes (yes I said purple) really pale skin (vampire pale), and people consider me emo, which I guess I am. I cut, am depressed, suicidal and have 'the look'.

People think I have the perfect life, when in reality nothing is perfect, especially my life. Why? Well, my mother makes me be a nerd, sure it has it's perks but if I do anything wrong I get a beating from my father. I barely get to express myself, I only have fake friends (minus Austin) and I have to be a 'little miss perfect'  The only person that knows that is Austin. That's why he's my best friend. He's amazing, I could tell him everything and he wouldn't tell a soul.

Mr. Brightside (it's his favorite song)

I was wondering if maybe we could meet up? It's okay if you don't want to, it was just a thought, since we've known each other for about two years and we've never seen eachother

Miss.Outcast

Of course we can meet up, I'd love to, I want to know who you are, when can we meet  up and where?

Mr. Brightside

You won't like me when we meet each other  in person. Do you know the park by Starbucks in ______ street?

Miss. Outcast

How many times do I need to tell you that I will accept you no matter how you look, I'm not an arsehole! And yes, yes I do.

Mr. Brightside

Trust me, you'll hate me as soon as you see what I look like. And would that be an okay place to meet? You could still change your mind about meeting me.

Miss. Outcast

No, I won't, gosh, if anyone is going to be hating the other it's going to be you hating me, I'm disgusting! It would be a great place to meet up, how's about 3:30pm for the time? I swear if you ditch me, I will never talk to you in my life ever again!

Mr. Brightside

HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU, YOU ARE GORGEOUS! And it would be a great time to meet up. :-) You know you wouldn't be able to put up with that  c;

Miss. Outcast

You'll be changing your mind when we meet each other. Cocky now are we? Huh? We both know you wouldn't be able to last without me either?

Mr. Brightside

 No, I won't! It's not being cocky if it's the truth! :P  I'm not denying that

I awed, he was so kind, cute, friendly and ------ "Ow, ow ,ow!!!!!!" I screamed when someone was yanking all my hair from behind.

The one day I decide to wear a ponytail!

It only stung since I was used to it. I dropped my phone on my bed as I felt the tears start to well up in my eyes. NO! Don't give them that satisfaction to see you cry!

I was dragged from my room into my living room, by my father. "Why did you-" I was cut off when my father slapped me straight across the face. My face stung, that's gonna leave a mark. I yet again felt the tears start to build up. You'll never see me cry!! I mentally yelled at myself. I pushed the tears back to see him holding up one of my tests.

"WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?!?!?!" He yelled. "It's an eighty sir" I whispered. " I DID NOT PAY YEARS OF TUTORING FOR THIS SHIT!!!!!" He yelled slapping me, but this time I fell backwards.

Where's my mother? On a business trip, her punishment would have been a bit less painful, but more yelling. You're probably wondering how no one hears him yelling? Well we live a bit out of town by the woods.

"YOU WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT *slap* I SHOULD HAVE NEVER HAD A DAUGHTER *slap* YOU'RE SO STUPID *slap* YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A WASTE OF SPACE *slap* YOU ARE A MISTAKE *kick in the gut* I SHOULD HAVE YOU PUT YOU IN THAT ADOPTION CENTER WHEN I WAS ASKED *punch in the gut* YOU'RE EVEN DISGUSTING *slap* WHY DON'T YOU JUST KILL YOURSELF *hits with a belt* GET OUT OF MY SIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!! " He yelled, and then walked away.

I was shaking at this point but even after all that I still refuse to cry. I got up as quickly as possible, it was actually quite slow. Once I was up on my feet, I went back up the stairs, careful to not hurt myself too much. I walked into my room, locked the door; went into my bathroom locked that door. And picked up my carpet. And there it was, my other best friend {behind Austin and music} my blade. I sat down on top of the toilet lid.

DON'T DO IT!!!!!! THINK ABOUT AUSTIN!!!!!!     A little voice in my head said

I'm sorry Austin.  I mentally whispered

I took the blade onto my wrist and dragged it across 1....2.....3.....4... I started feeling relief again....5.. Ohhhh, how I've missed this.....6......7...... 8

" I'm coming out of my cage and I've been doing just fine.

Gotta, gotta be down because I want it all.

It started out with a kiss. How did it end up like this?

It was only kiss

It was only a kiss .... "  The Vamps cover of Mr. Brightside. A .k. a Bradley Will Simpson's voice was faintly heard from my phone. Shit Austin!!!!! Shit, shit, shit. SHIT!!

I stood up and looked at my wrist to see the blood dripping on the tiled floors, I went to my sink and cleaned my cuts; I then bandaged them to stop the blood from dripping on my carpet. I washed my hands and proceeded to go get my phone. I was listening to the faint  voice.

" Jealousy turning saints into the sea, swimming through sick lullabies

Choking on your alibis. But it's just the price I pay.

Destiny is calling me, open up my eager eyes

Cos I'm Mr. Brightside." I found it under my blanket on the floor.

60 Unread messages From: Mr. Brightside

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Hope you enjoyed that! Or found it interesting. Sorry if it triggered you beautiful people.

Stay strong,

I care,

I love you,

I'll miss you,

You're beautiful

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