What will we become? (Kellic Fanfiction)

Why Us?

Vic’s P.O.V.

“I didn’t go to Mexico to see my family. I went there to go to a Medical Centre. Kellin I……I have Cancer.” I look into his eyes for some sort of emotion but they are empty. The normal rushing blue waters have calmed and become still glassy lakes.

I pull him into a tight embrace feeling his breathing get heavy and quick. “Kellin I wanted to spend this time with you. I was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. The doctors are giving me 7 months. I didn’t have the heart to tell you babe. I’m so sorry Kells.” What the fuck is wrong with me? I know that Kellin can’t handle this but still, I HAD to tell him.

Tears streak down my face and his. Kellin pushes back a little. I wipe the tears from his face with my thumb and just lock my eyes onto his. We are stuck like this for 10 minutes before he starts to speak.

“Vic, how long have you known?” he says stern as if he’s angry.

“For 2 years. I’ve been getting Radiation Therapy but when I went to Mexico the doctor said that it’s turned into a Stage 3 and they keep saying that I’m not going to have much time. Maybe the end of senior year.” I choke out the last part. I know I messed up my chances with him. Who wants a sick cancer boy? I get up off the bed grabbing my things ready to leave, I linger in the door as if I want to say something but nothing comes out. I move again to leave until I hear him.

“Vic no, please don’t go. I’m so sorry I just don’t know how to react. I can’t process this…..I just I’m sorry.” My back is still to him. I can’t turn around. I know that if I do I have to see those broken eyes again.

Instead I feel two warm arms wrap around me. They tighten as I turn around and I return the warm hug.

“Kellin I’m sorry I never told you before about this. I can barely process this too. Having the doctors give you an expiration date is just plain sick. My family has been grieving with me but they turned their pain into silence. My parents ignore me. The only one who has accepted it is my brother Mikey. He is just cherishing the time we have left. I want that to be us Kellin, cherishing and holding on to everything. This is going to be hard and I can’t imagine going through this without you.” I hug him tighter if that’s even possible. “I just feel so alone with this. I need you”

“Don’t ever feel that way. Vic I don’t want you to go through this alone okay? I will be here for you always I promise. I don’t want us thinking about what’s going to happen.  Let’s just live in the now” His eyes are holding back something I just know it. I want to say something but there is no use in starting a fight again. We both are in weak positions right now.

“Kells,” I ask wanting his attention, he puts his head up in response “I know that what I said is terrible and I know whats happening to me I the worst but, right now I need us to pretend that everything is okay. Yes I know its not but I need this. I need to stay happy.”

He lets go of me and turns around going over to his desk. He opens the bottom drawer and pulls out a tattered green notebook. He pauses for a moment and looks at it as if it’s the most important thing left to him.

“Here” He says handing me the book gently “this is my lyric journal. Sorry it’s so beaten up I get inspiration at the most random of times. But I want you to take it the last 18 pages were written while you were away. My inspiration was you and once I started writing it went crazy and I kept filling up more and more pages.” He blushes a deep red and looks at the ground. “I haven’t written in the book since I was 11. I never had a reason too. My life was shitty and I had nothing……Vic now I have you.”

That was it right fucking there. That was all this boy needed to say to rip my fucking heart out. I knew he cared about me but seriously this was all too much. He was perfect everything was perfect. He is all I need in life right now.

I open the book to the freshly inked pages and tears form in my eyes. There is a song called “Alone” and the lyrics pain me,                                                                           

Whe I lay in bed at night, All I do is think of you. So when all this is gone what do have to come home to?
This life goes by so fast
Pretty soon I'll grow old
What would I have but some stories now that I have told
No one to share them with
And when it's all done
What am I left with?

On the side of the pages in all the margins ALONE is scribbled in big letters. “You don’t have to feel this way you know? I’m here for you. No matter what happens. Yes my time is limited but this is my promise to you Kellin.”

I get on my knees and hold his hands. I place his left one on my heart. “I Victor Vincent Fuentes promise that I will be here to make every day of your life special. I want to be here when you cry, when you’re happy, when you need somebody to hold. Baby I promise to be here.”

He looks like the happiest boy in the world. To say he was smiling from ear to ear would be an understatement. Kellin was smiling from wall to freaking wall. He quickly grabs my face and pulls me up.

He looks into my eyes “ Vic I love you” I think I just broke my face from the smile that appeared. Before I can say anything back he smashes his face onto mine. Our lips molding into each other’s in a manner unexplainable. I’ve longed for this for such a long time. Everything was perfect. This boy means a lot to me. I close the door behind me and shove him closer to the bed. Maybe this time nothing will stop us. 

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