What will we become? (Kellic Fanfiction)

Don't Judge Me

Kellins POV

“Well it’s actually just Vic, only family calls me Victor.” He pulls me back to the ground and sits next to me. “But about earlier, thanks for running into me, I really didn’t want to be late but skipping that sounds pretty fun. Do you do it often?” Vic says sarcastically.

“Yeah actually.” Two can play at this game. “Not often enough to get suspended but enough to know that every day at 2:15 Mrs. Walcott and Mr. Duncan have a make out session in the back of his car.” I smile thinking back to the day when they caught me. They tried to give me detention for skipping but I told them if they did I would tell on their awkward romance. I got off the hook and pocketed $50 from Mr. Duncan.

“WHAT?! Ew that’s so gross Kellin.” He imitates throwing up. “Really, I did not need to know that.” Vic makes a gagging sound too funny not to laugh at. “Hey! Stop. Mr. Duncan is my Lit teacher; you just made me imagine some weird shit”

“Wait you know my name?” I questioned.

“Well the nurse gave it to me just like she told me where to find you” Vic said with confidence.

“So no shame in pretty much stalking me?” I said flirtatiously. Why am I flirting with him? He’s going to do it to me isnt’t he?

“You call it stalking, I call finding out necessary information.” Vic smiles and look away. “Want to go get something to eat? I’m starved.”

“Well I just ate,” I say thinking back to those amazing waffles my mom made “but sure why not I love me some free food” I smile looking for him to catch on, I try to sound confident but I know my voice is shaky.

“Free food? What?” He looks confused but then it settles. “Oh you mean I’m paying? Well, I don’t usually pay for the first date but why not?”

He winks and my heart skips a beat. I guess no more being the dominant one with this guy. I try to find words but they don’t come out. “Oh…um…date…breakfast…I...thought…” Shit. Why am I so damn awkward? Well he mentioned date right? So does that mean he’s gay? And he winked. Or was it a twitch? Shit. Shit. Shit. I don’t think I can handle another Him.

“Are you okay? You seem a bit spacey.” he says laughing. What I would give to hear that laugh all the time. It has something special about it. Not that fake ass laugh, a real genuine one.

“Yeah, I think I’m just so focused on food that I couldn’t think straight man.” I say as I start to get up. Man? Really? Kellin come on be cooler than that.

“A guy who loves food as much as me? Well that’s putting you up on my list” He says confidently as he stands up.

His list? What? I don’t question it as we begin walking to the car lot. “Whose car do you want to take?” I say coming close to mine.

“Is it cool if we take yours? My little brother Mike needs mine to get home” He says checking his pockets to make sure he doesn’t have the keys. When he looks satisfied that his brother has them he walks towards me. I go up to my crappy van and unlock the doors. “Sure. No worries.” I say getting in the car.

“Wow” Vic says as he climbs into my front seat. “So do you like have a band or something?”

“Yeah we do. Sleeping With Sirens. It’s pretty shitty now we’re looking for a new guitarist actually. It would make the band complete.” I know I’m coming off completely desperate but hey maybe he knows someone. “So what food place you do you want to go to?” I say trying to change the subject.

“How about Steak n’ Shake? I could really go for a burger right now” he smiles “And I know what you’re thinking a burger for breakfast but hey I guys gotta eat hearty right?” He laughs and goes for the radio he automatically switches through the stations with familiarity.

Something about that makes me feel at ease. Knowing that we could do this more often and not make it weird. We could be friends, maybe more? I’m not sure right now. But I know I want to hang out with Vic forever.

He stops playing with the radio and begins to look around. “Do you have any CD’s?”

“Freak yeah I do” I say smiling, I point to the ground at CD case on the floor. Vic opens the case with amusement. “You have Bring Me The Horizon?!?!” He shouts with excitement. “Of course! They are only the greatest band ever”

We look at each other and know we both feel the same way. “Hey could you pull over?” Vic asks anxiously. I don’t understand but I obey and pull off at the next exit. I turn off the car waiting for the explanation.

“So why did we stop?” I say eagerly looking into Vic’s brown eyes intently.

“Want to hook up?” He says in a low confident tone. His eyes lock into mine. Before I can answer he begins to lean forward but I back away. “Oh shit, I’m so sorry. I thought you were like me. I thought you wanted it the way you flirted.” He backs off awkwardly. “I really didn’t mean it”

I can’t move I’m so shocked I never turn something like this down. I’m so stupid. I don’t want what happened earlier this year to repeat. I have to do it. I have to. He’ll hurt me. I have to do what I know.

I make up for the silence by grabbing Vic’s face, crashing his lips onto his. I break apart for a second “I’m sorry I was a little shocked. When I do this there aren’t any questions.” I wink and pull him towards the back of the van. I straddle him making our lips lock again.

He tangles his hands in my hair and pulls. I let out a moan. “Oh baby you know I like it rough” I look into his eyes. They are no longer his, they are filled with lust and passion. It’s been so long since this. Am I ready? Too late. Vic starts tugging at my pants, unbuttoning them. I begin to pull his tank off. I look at him before. His smile encourages me to continue once I rip it off another face appears. It’s no longer Vic. It’s Matty. His ginger hair slicked over. His pale hands gripping me a little too hard. Hard enough to leave more bruises. The flashbacks come.

Matty grabbing me by the elbow pulling me into his bedroom. Why did I even go to the party. I saw him put something in my drink but figured it was just the usual drugs at a party. But I was completely wrong. He threw me on the bed. I tried to fight back and run, but I was too weak. He ripped my jeans off along with his. Grabbing me and groping me roughly in his drunken state. “I’m going to make you feel so good baby.

“No Matty stop! Please help me! Let me go. Please!” I scream at the top of my lungs hoping to escape from him.

“Woah, Kellin are you okay? What’s wrong? Who’s Matty?” I look own and his pale skin is gone. The boy under me is tan and muscular. It’s Vic. He looks concerned.

What have I done?

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Hey my lovely readers! So this chapter is a bit choppy but I needed a way to add the ending. The next chapter will be better I promise :)

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