Precious | n.s

10

We are so close, yet worlds apart

- Precious, Quote 10

Harry watched with confused yet worried look as they both ride in silence. He thought after the appointment things would be good between them, not great but good. They would be together, holding each other as they would wait for the rant result come and take decision. All though  he has already made a decision in his mind, if.....if the results will be against them.

But watching Niall walk out of that door, hie heels clicking and him not answering him at all, not even looking back at him much less waiting for him, didn't sit well with him. He knows his husband very well and he knows for some reason Niall is pissed

He has no idea on who or what though

He has tried to talk to him when he started his car and received no answer, multiple times. Not av single word, an argument or Niall screaming at him.

He didn't dare ask him about their appointment.

Putting the car in the park he is switching the engine off as he asked
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hat they were having for dinner, only for Niall to whisper quietly in the car "how can you even suggest it "

Bewildered, Harry didn't understand what he was going about "What? What are you talking about Ni-?"

He was cut off by the blonde making him almost gasp and jump in "HOW CAN YOU SUGGEST IT!"

Niall screams in the confinement of the car, with fiery eyes glistening with unshed tears as his heart ache. Never did he felt more weak than right at this moment.

It takes a moment for Harry to even process what Niall is talking about as he sits their shock to his core, never have seen Niall so angry at him,  never have seen him screaming at him. In a second he knows he has hurt his husband in some ways

 He tries to reason out, tries to say something but Niall is clearly not having any of it as at the moment Niall gets out of the car and starts walking towards the door,"Listen to me Ni-"

Harry is quick on his tail, jumping out and locking the car. He is right behind him reaching for his arm to stop him that Niall manages to ram the house key in the lock and throws it open.
 
He walks the small distance to the living room, Harry following him quietly before he turns around. Don't you love me the way I am ?"
 
Harry feels the pain and hurt in Niall, he tears up as well practically begging him to understand his point of view, to understand his love for the blonde. To understand the fact that he can't and won't let anything happen to him, he will not be able to bare it, his heart can't bare it "I love the way you're love, I do ... I love every part of you. I just thought , it will be better -"
 
He was cut off, left stunned as Niall shouts, looking annoyed as ever with hurt pouring into each of his words as he fails his hand in the air "Then why would you ask for it ! Betray me like this"
 
Harry moves forward, trying to reach Niall but the blonde takes steps back  effectively creating a space Harry neevr wanted. He stills takes Niall's elbow in his fingers trying to make him understand his reasons "Because I love you ! And I don't want to ever and I mean it Ni ! Ever lose you"
 
" you will not Harry!" Niall sighs looking at Harry, his eyes soften though a small amount of hurt can be seen in those red eyes.

Harry shakes his head, as he leaves his elbow, now taking few steps back disbelievingly, he shakes his head again as he looks at Niall in....diamay "How can you guarantee that Niall?! It's ridiculous! Why do you want to stay with this....risk! Like a fucking sword dangling on our head"

Niall tenses up at Harry's outburst, never been on the receiving end of it. His fingers curl into the lace of his shirt as he mumbles, his voice gaining stronger as each words past making it audible to Harry "It's the sword that is dangling on millions of heads at this moments Harry. Surgery or not, is not going to change that up!"

He says throwing his hands up, not really believing they are doing this.

Harry starts, trying to make him understand but Niall cuts him up "It will decrease the chances-"

"You are still for it, aren't you? You think I am a freak too, don't you?! Just like all those people! A guy with girls part, who would want a boyfriend like that! A husband like that!"

Harry is left stunned, not believing he is hearing these words from his husband, not believing that his husband is accusing him of such a thing. Never for once the thought of Niall being anything but pretty crossed his mind

All air leaves him as he stands still, not believing Niall thinks that low of him "Niall -"

Niall smiles wearily, taking Harry's silence in a completely opposite way as he waves his hand, dissolving the matter "No, I got that message clear Harry. Very clear. Atleast I thought you would be a gentleman and tell it to my face rather than in front of fucking doctor!" he shouts at the end and all Hardy can do is stutter, not even in wildest dreams he thought his actions would be intercepted this way.

"Ni- I didn't mean -" he tries to tell him, cursing in mind not able to keep Niall's tears at bay, not able to make him sad - to hurt him. Because he really never meant it. He loves him too much.

"Oh you did mean it! Don't give me that, you were arguing for it just a few seconds ago. Don't you dare say otherwise!" Niall screams at Harry, pointing his finger as he takes step back before sprinting to their bedroom with Harry on his tail.

Harry watches as everything happens so fast, one minute Niall is sad and then screaming, accusing of things he never did and now he is pulling open the cupboard and throwing some dress on the bed.
"Niall"

"Niall! Niall! w-wh-whhat are you doing?" he asks, his heart beating wildly as he sees Niall removing bedsheets and pillows from the lower and get up.

"I don't want to talk to you right now" he says standing up and taking all the bedsheets and pillows in his hand, he pushes past Harry making his way to t living room.  

"where are you going? Don't sleep in the living room" Harry cries not wanting Niall to do this.

"Who says I am?"with that Niall dumps everything from his hand onto the sofa, before looking at a very helpless Harry, fire burning in his eyes as he says "Here. Good fucking night!"

"Jesus you're so stubborn" Harry can't help but curse out as Niall moves around him stomping  towars their bedroom only for Niall to whirl around and stop.

He gives Harry a pointed look as he says  "I will choose my words wisely if I were you"

"Niall-" Harry tries, eyes holding tears at bay as he watches Niall's beautiful face before he says "Go to sleep Harry" and slams the door right on his face, leaving a heartbroken and stunned man alone in the quiteness of the living room.

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