The Broken Little Damsel

Chapter Fifteen

"Can I help you?", I asked him.
"I think you can help me. I'm looking for some one. You study at Stafford high,right? ", he said.
After what happened last night I don't know if I can trust strangers.
"Yes, sir, I study and leave there. Who are you looking for?"
"Very well then. You can help me. Here is my business card,call me whenever you are ready to talk. I have to go",with that he left me in my car confused than ever.
Looking at his business card this information was written:
Eric Stewart
035 334 5678
082 4328276
Stewart corporations.
Stewart? Deep blue eyes?
It couldn't  be. He couldn't be him. Whoever he is, I can't afford talk to  Jake at the moment. I don't want to see him. I don't want anything to do with him.
After he left I decided to go back to my sleep. I tried to close my eyes but as I did that, a movie played in my head. That night Robert  raped me for the first time and when he did it last night.
That day when I walked into Pep stores to buy a razer blade and cutted myself for the first time.
It seemed like it's was long time back but it was just a few years back when I started. Maybe I should stop. It really not healthy or funny.
But if it wasn't for Jake , Carrie and Dustin, trying to fix what was already broken, I would have stopped a long time back.
If they kept it a secret as I had wanted it to be I wouldn't have been raped ,again.
I felt like dirt.
Checking the time on the car and saw that it was a few minutes before 10.
I decided to go to my house to bath and maybe get something to eat because I was really hungry.
The way back home was so long. I got home and as I entered the door ,I remembered that I didn't lock the door.
Going to my room ,I saw that the letter was not there. So they  read it. Good.
I went to the bathroom and ran hot water into the bathing tub. While wating for the water, I looked for an outfit. I took out a navy max dress. After a long relaxing bath,which wasn't relaxing after all because of the itching new scars, I wore the dress.
My attempts of making breakfast were invain. The cupboard was literally empty. Like empty. Nothing. Nada. Zero food.
What am I supposed to do?
Go buy groceries. Don't you think it will help?
But I'm lazy. The mall is too far.
Thought as much. Then you'll die of hunger.
This voce will be the death of me.
Running upstairs to get my car keys so that I could go shopping, I was disturbed by the ringing of the door bell.
Some people really lack timing. Maybe it is a disorder or a syndrome. I have my way of thinking,don't blame me.
Before opening the door I decided to get the key and phone so that after talking to Who ever that was ,I can continue with my journey.
Opening the door, I regreted why did I even come back.
I should have known that he would come after me.
I tried to close the door but he placed his foot between the door and it's frame.
"Kristy,look I'm sorry ,I shouldn't have trusted him."
I hate him.
Because of that I walked past him and locked the door then went to my car.
I was about to drive away when he opened my door.
"You just think you can just run away from everything. Unfortunately you can't. It called life sweetheart.", he said.
Who gave him the right to talk to me like that?
I slapped him and snapped,"If you haven't been a jerk than I wouldn't be running away, if you would excuse me I have to go."
"I thought you said you were not running away. So what are you doing?", he asked.
"As if you care. Besides, it's non of your business what am doing."
With that I closed the car,started it and then drove away.
That guy is really a jerk. I don't want anything to with him. He ruined my life. Actually they ruined my life. Him,Carrie and Dustin . I don't even know why I trusted them.
I bought groceries then had lunch at the mall. After that I drove back home and as I climbed out of the car, I saw that Jake  was still there. He was sitting at my door step.
Ow he doesn't know me.
I'll show him. He shall know me.
Taking the bags out of the car ,I walked past him making sure that I kicked him.
I got in and locked the door. Leaning on the door, I exhaled.
Maybe, he didn't know that Rob  was going to do it again. I should at least listen to him.
I don't think so.
Not this voice again.
I didn't ask for your opinion.
You don't have to ask for it. I'm your mind so I'm the one who do the thinking .
Whatever.
I went upstairs after unpacking plastics. Looking at the time it was five pm. The only thing that came in mind was to watch a movie.
But which one. And what to eat after it. It was decided. Cook dinner first then watch the movie.
I roasted a chicken leg quarter then made potato mash, greek salad and gravy. By half past six I was done cooking so I had my supper before the movie.
After washing dishes ,we had a little argument about which movie to watch. By we I mean my mind and I. I did say that this mind was going to be the death of me.
I ended up watching 'Walking on sunshine', in the couch.
It's a very cool movie. A romantic musical one.
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A/N
The twin is coming you might want to wear something warm and comfy.
Don't say I didn't warn you.

Love
Sthabile