A Little Getaway: A Sherri Polo Adventure

Ch. 5 You Can't Hide Your Feelings

Sherri's POV:

This is bullshit.

Such bullshit.

I walk into the room and I'm not even sure where I want to go or what I want to do. I pace around for a few minutes, trying to clear my head but the booze and the anger make it nearly impossible. I walk into the bedroom and sit on the bed with my face in my hands as I begin to cry in frustration. What the hell was happening?

A hall pass... it was such a silly thing. It wasn't meant to be real. Kamar and I were just talking and goofing off so when I chose Teri it was because she was the safe choice. He would never be threatened by her.

But subconsciously did I chose her because I really did want her? And why did it bother me so much that she knew?

I had to admit to myself she was unlike anyone I'd ever known in my life. She made me feel things about myself, a confidence, that I was lacking before I met her. And I loved her. So very much. But was I attracted to her? Sexually? I thought back to our kiss on the beach and the tingling that ran from my chest down into my groin answered that question for me. Why couldn't she just have forgetten that he told her that? Now it seems like Pandora's Box had been opened and I'm not sure how it will ever be closed.

I hear her open the sliding doors and I immediately wipe my face trying to hide my tears. I honestly don't know what to do with myself so I grab my bag off the floor and begin taking my clothes out of the drawers. She's still talking to him in that low giggly voice that she uses when she flirts with me and it makes me see red. We still have three days here, but I just can't. And I can't explain why the thought of her talking to him makes me feel so mad. I'm not jealous. Am I? I force the thought away as I continue to push my clothes into my bag not caring that I'm wrinkling everything I brought. I just have to get out of here. I go to grab my things off the nightstand and I see her standing in the door.

"So you're leaving?" she asks quietly.

"I just can't Teri. I've got to go."

"Be reasonable love. We're 6 hours away from home, and you've been drinking. And do you think it's wise to leave as mad as you are right now? At least wait until morning..."

"I'm not drunk."

"I didn't say that you were, but at least if you were it would explain this outrageous behavior."

"Outrageous?"

"Yes outrageous..."

"Thanks for belittling my feelings, friend."

I go back to packing my things when she is all of a sudden next to me, stopping me from putting things in my bag.

"Sherri, listen to me," she says forcefully as she grabs my wrists and forces me to turn and face her. I try to pull away, but she won't let me. "I am your friend, and I'm not belittling your feelings. But I thought we were close enough to joke about things like hall passes, and the crush you may or may not have on me..."

"Crush? Fuck you, Polo."

I try to pull away but she pulls me back to her.

"Listen here Saum. You are my best friend. You are my love and my queen. I will NOT let some petty ass drunken argument over you harboring fantasies about fucking me interfere with our friendship. This is silly and ridiculous. You have no reason to be embarrassed if there is some truth to what he said. You love me. I love you. We spend almost every waking minute talking to each other or thinking about each other, worrying about each other, watching out for each other. We have shared some of the most intimate and private things about our lives that no one else knows. How could we not be attracted to each other? And if we're being honest right now, and I feel like we are, you can take comfort in the knowledge that I want to fuck you too. The only question now is what do we do with it?"