weapons † hs

epilogue

please read this if you've read the whole book! it's got information of what you should expect coming up and more dedicated to you.

...i'm lowkey emotional here.

Weapons is the first book i've ever written that truly made me feel like i could even write in the first place. i developed a writing style through this book that works for me, and i'm so glad. this book is without a doubt my best creation so far, because i essentially wrote a book that i would want to read.

granted, i've only written two books before this (unpublished one of them because just...cringe), but this was the book that i felt that my mind had total control over what i wanted, that i knew from the start what i wanted, and everything played out so soooooo perfectly.

i magically came up with the entire plot, chapter by chapter, in the span of a couple of days. how it all came to me in such an instant, i don't understand, but to see the success of it (and hopefully it continues to grow), it's made me so happy, i can't express it to you.

essentially, i struggle with depression a lot, and writing/sharing my work takes the pain away momentarily, it's as plain as that. with people responding to that in such a positive way by supporting me, you don't know how much that helps me mentally feel confident. i kid you not when i say i write during all of my free time. i don't have many friends, so i guess a normal person's time spent with their friends is mine spent writing.

i wanted to convey myself through my writing and let you guys learn about me as a person within my characters and their actions, and i hope you did!

i also wanted to meet new people online, as i love doing, and through my work, i also did! i made a great friend while writing this book ;)

those were some of my main, more personal goals, but my book related goals have finally all been reached by this book, and mind you, those goals were so soooo simple.

i could see that i was making people laugh, or sad, or fangirl. having comments on my book that i felt you as readers genuinely meant, that was a goal. the jokes i made through quotes got inline comments of laughing, that's all i've ever wanted. the sad stuff, that got inline comments of crying emojis or all caps messages, and that's what i wanted. i wanted to see people feeling things that i tried to portray, to get emotionally attached, and when i did, it meant to me that i was finally doing it right. people were openly liking my characters, my chapters, my plot, my character development, and more. i got more comments than i've ever received on a story-book, and so much more amazing feedback, which is what i always wanted. and the votes, omg, let me thank every single one of you who have voted on every chapter, like damn.

and even if you didn't vote/comment while reading this, but rather you are a lowkey reader and that's how you roll, your presence throughout the entire book has made me so happy. i know you're there, i can tell from the statistics and demographics i love checking. you readers are from all over the world, i find it wonderful and cool. each of you clearly made it from beginning to end and that has me beaming. i'm thrilled to know you've enjoyed it whether you're more open about it by voting/commenting, or silent with your support. thank you.

one of you "early readers" (i'd like to imagine that after posting this, my story will continue to grow. and if it does, i will be so proud of myself and thankful) even private messaged me on Wattpad and told me that this might be one of your favorite books you were currently reading of all time.

that was probably the best compliment i have ever received, and i'll never forget that.

like when you told me that (i'm calling you out i know) i wanted to cry because like i'm just a teenage girl who just fucking loves harry styles and writes fake stuff about him as a hobby, and to have one of my creations be an actual favorite of someone's, that just melts my heart.