daeil ; texting

a vent.

hi everyone. I'm going through a break up so if you don't want to see me being sad then ignore this.

me and my boyfriend broke up two days ago. we were dating for 10 months and those months were the best moments of my life. he loved me and I loved him but our love slowly died away. he stopped caring while I did everything I could to keep it going. we said we would last forever but it didn't work. he said he wouldn't hurt me but he did. he was my everything. he was my first kiss, he taught me how to loved, he made me realize how amazing love is but nothing lasts forever. he was amazing. I miss him. I want him to hold me. he's doing fine and I'm crying my eyes out. I miss him so much. I miss his lips, I miss his warmth, his touch. he gave me things, why? why did he have to do that? he loved me then it went away. I have his hoodies, I have his teddy bear he gave me, I have the hoodie he bought, I have a polaroid picture that I cant even look at. last night, I tore up the letters he wrote for me, I ripped the pictures of us. I deleted all the pictures I had of you. people loved us, people enjoyed us. they smiled when they saw us. my friend's mom saw our love. my friends saw the way you looked at me. why didn't you stop me from breaking us up? I'm in pain and it hurts. I hate how you're doing fine, I don't care if you're pushing it away, it's hurting me. stop talking about our break up so carelessly. just stop. I just want to stop but I cant. why? because I still love you. I love your smile, your voice, your laugh, just everything about you. if only I tried harder. why? why couldn't I just wait? maybe you could've changed. it hurts. everything hurts. I feel sick. everything is crashing down. my family loved you. everyone loved you, they loved us. we let them down, I let them down. it hurts even more thinking about how there will be someone else for you. someone better. you'll love her better, you'll treat her better because our relationship taught you something. it taught you that not only one person has to try but both. I hope you learn how to open up and control your anger issues. I don't regret loving you. thank you.

(this is I mess, but it hurts. please support me guys.)