Risking it all - Alycia/You

2.

I looked at the screen again and my heart beat increased every second more.

"Y/N? what's wrong?" Lou asked me.

"No- no- nothi-ng" I said stuttering.

"Nothing?"

"I need to go to my room" I said and walked upstairs.

I arrived at my room and i sat in my bed, i looked my phone again biting my lip, i cant believe she decided to contact me after a year!
Well she didn't have my number and she never tweeted or went on tumblr again, until today.

I took a deep breathe and grabbed my phone i unlocked and went to the notificacion.

Alyciadebishes: Y/N... Hello. I know we haven't talked in a long time and that's why after the talk on the airport i decided to not bother you again, i felt broken because i told you i liked you, it was more. I fell for you, i had feelings for you, it was hard when you didn't tell me anything, i wanted us to work, i wanted to be with you because damn y/n i'm in love with you... I'm not here to make your life complicated, i just wanted to know if you're okay, i haven't heard of you in long time and you don't know how much i miss you... how much i wanna be with you every second of my life.
I'll tell you something, i'm recording the third season of fear the walking dead and i'll be over in 2 weeks, i was thinking on visit you in our hometown and you know we can talk, i have been sad this whole time.
I know you heard i had a boyfriend, Jordan but it doesn't mean a thing, He is some guy my manager asked me to date... sounds complicated but we broke up by now.
I didn't love him, i didn't like him.
This whole year baby, it's been you.
I miss you and deeply love you.
I'm sorry if this is too much to handle but i had to say it y/n, i'm not waiting for an answer but i really hope you do, i want you, please want me too.
I know you haven't said anything about your feelings for me but i'm sure there is something it has to. I feel it.
Good bye for now baby.

I was literally in shock after read this, my tears falling down my cheeks and i was already sobbing.

She loves me? how? we just meet and barely talk, we hung out a bit and talked for almost eight months, is that possible?

Yes because you love her too stupid.

Fuck this.