Risking it all - Alycia/You

4.

"Wow... you look beautiful y/n" She mumbled and i was in shock, i couldn't believe she is there.

"y/n?? are you okay?" I sighed.

"Uh... Alycia... what- what are you doing here?"

"I told you i'll be here soon, actually i came sooner than i thought, i wanted to see you... fix us" She said and i shake my head.

"No... there's nothing to fix, i have to go" I said and she called me but i totally ignored her, i walked faster but then i felt arms around me.

"Please y/n don't run from me, please i promise i can make you happy, i can fix us"

"You are famous, we can't, there's no an us alycia and never will" I said and i could see the hurt in her eyes.

"I know is risky but we can get through it, we can do it and i know i can fix us... y/n i like you so so much i promise it will work, take the risk with me" She begged but i shook my head again, no it cant work.

"No, i'm sorry" I said and left her there, she looked down and i walked away.

{...}

I arrived at my house and i smell bacon, i smiled and sighed, my mom was cooking and that's weird because she is at work at this time, but i guess she left earlier.

"Hey baby, how are you?" She asked i smiled.

"It's been good" I said and she frowned.

"What's wrong?"

"Mom... what would you do if someone asks you to be with you, that they can do whatever for you but you cannot do it, you can't take that risk" I said and my mom sat in the chair next to me.

"Look, is it about Alycia?" I nodded, yeah my mom knows everything because i had to tell her i mean she is my mom and she is the best i know i can tell her everything and she will always be by my side.

"She came back and i saw her today, she said she can fix us, but it's risky"

"Baby, you love her?" I nodded. "why don't you take the risk with her? she would do it for you, why don't you?" I shrugged. "Think about it, you are falling for her even when you don't want to and that's love baby, you will understand it later, maybe you're too young, maybe it's not the time, maybe she's not the right but if you don't risk it all you won't know" She said and kissed my forehead.

I sighed and got up. "I'll be in my room" I said and she gave me a smile and a nod.

I lied down in my bed and sighed, i don't know what else to do at this point, i don't understand what is she doing to me, even when she is not near she can make me feel all this cliche things.
I need to talk to her, properly, i need to stop being a pussy and talk to her, risk it all for her.

You will get hate, her fans will hate you so much and you won't handle it, you will want to die

Why do i have to listen to my mind?
I need to stop it and actually do the things i have to.
She wanted to risk it all for me and i know that won't happen and if it happens she will be by my side all the time, she will protect me because she is risking it all too.
I think so? will she show me to everyone? will she?
I dont even know if she is ready to do this.

Of course she is.

I don't even know.

I bit my lip and grabbed my phone, i opened the tumblr app and started typing.

Alyciadebnamfanpage: I need to talk to you, i promise i won't run this time. See you at starbucks in 30'

I got an answer almost instantly.

Alyciadebishes: See you there:)