AUDIO

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by ParkRaynette

by ParkRaynette

                                        
                                                  

Moon dust
The sky
                              Make me want to fly
Tired of listening to the sounds all around 
Just want to be free of the judging eyes
The snide remarks 
The conniving tongue
The pretense of being mentally strong 
Emotionally distant
The pretense of being mature
Of having it all
Of being able to move on easily
The pretense that all is well 
Like you're not dying on the inside...slowly 
Acting like you can live on without your heart 
                              Relying on your brain alone
Acting like you're not in a dark place 
Like you don't want to be told 'all will be fine'
Like you don't want to let go of the mask
Trying to always be strong

                              Take a breather chile, let everything flow
Let the mask fall 
Let us experience the real you
The one hidden beneath the layers of protection 

                              It's not easy
Oh I know
But you have to
Just let go
And let your heart beat
Let it soar for the first time 
Feel the thump of it
Feel the blood flow uninhibited in your veins
Let the pictures flip through your mind
Trash around 
Flip everything upside down 
Let out that pain
Let it all out
Cast it all out
Cry if you must 
It'd be better if you do
Cause the pain, 
I know 
It's unbearable but still,
Let all that has eaten you up go
Be free of the burden chile 

                              Come with me
Let's have a seat before the fireplace 
I'd make you a cup of hot choclate
Top it off with marshmallows and a platter of fruit cake
A blanket wrapped around your shoulders
Bask in the warmth that surrounds you
Feel the love the fire has for you
The love the logs have for you
Dying so you can be warm
The fire burning brightly with so much love radiating from it
                              Chile, you're not alone
                              We are with you 
                              We the ones from times past share your pain
We feel the weight on your soul, how it weighs you down 
How it drags you through the emotional mud
How it tortures you
How it haunts ya 
Keeping you awake night after night 
And when you eventually sleep, you are attacked by nightmares 
We understand 
Because we were once in your position 
But now?
We lend you our strength
We stand by you
We refuse to let you end up the way we did
We have seen something in you that we're not going to let die out
YOU ARE SPECIAL IN YOUR OWN WAY 
You don't have to be beautiful by their standards 
You don't have to be normal by their standards 
YOU DON'T HAVE TO FIT INTO THEIR EXPECTATIONS OF YOU
You don't have to be sane by their standards 
You are your own person
AND WE, 
STAND 
WITH
YOU!