Warning: Suicide Oneshot
Y/n's POV
Flashback
"The problem with is you seem to know everything! It's suffocating me, Y/N! You know what? let's call this off, I'm tired of you nagging at me for the smallest of things. You're a good for nothing and you don't deserve every bit of my being." The man in front of me huffed angrily, throwing his wedding ring on the table.
I sobbed and was met by the sound of the front door opening and slamming close.
End of Flashback
It has been 3 years. 3 years since he left us. It's been 3 painful years and yet i still remember those words that struck me.
I sighed and blinked back the tears that were threatening to fall. I looked over our 2 year-old daughter and conjured a sad smile.
I was beginning to sob furiously, remembering the day he left us. I bit my lip and started to whimper because of the pain. The little bundle of joy really looked like his father.
Her eyes resembling the twinkling green ones.
Her nose that protruded slightly and was resembling the shape of her father's.
Her soft and pale lips, almost inheriting her father's rather plump and pale ones.
This made me sob more, imagining my daughter would ask me if she had a daddy. I really don't know what to do by then.
Alan left us without any trace. But i still kept his wedding ring after he took it off and made it into a necklace.
The sadness is starting to drive me crazy. I don't know how i stayed sane for the past 3 years, but im glad i did. I'm glad because i was there when my daughter started to walk on her own.
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It was a quiet afternoon without the bundle of joy running around. I looked at myself on the mirror, my hair disheveled and my eyeliner running down my face.
My sister took Athena out this morning and i was glad because when they're back, they'll have no one to worry about.
I took a paper and a pen, writing a farewell letter for my sister, daughter and for him.
Dear Meredith,
I'm sorry for being such a burden to you for the past 3 years. I'm sorry because i couldn't fullfil your wishes. I'm sorry for being such a worthless bitch. Please take care of Athena for me. She's too precious for me and i can't see her suffering. Be the best mom for her. Even if it means she has to forget about me.
With Love,
Y/N.
I bit back more tears as it was dropping onto the paper, making the ink to scatter slightly.
Dear Alan,
Thank you for making me feel like i was the best woman you could ask for. Thank you for being the man who loved me for 20 years. Thank you for giving me such a wonderful gift. The day you left, i found out i was pregnant. I was going to tell you but i guess i was too late. Sorry for being such a good-for-nothing bitch that i was. I'm sorry for being a burden. Athena would be delighted to know her father. I managed to stay sane for her sake after you left. I'm writing you this letter because i still love you. No matter, i shall be gone once you read this and you'll live happily. I love you a lot, don't forget to kiss Athena on the forehead every night after you read her a bedtime story. She loves hugs too.
Love,
Y/N.
I couldn't stop my tears anymore. I could care less on how it'll affect the quality of my message.
I stood up and fold both letters and settled it neatly on my vanity. I walked towards the bathroom and got the swiss knife.
I slowly dragged the knife across my wrist deeply, watching the blood flow endlessly onto the floor.
I smiled and sat down on the bathtub, with a tear-streaked face i whispered,
"Sorry."
And the darkness enveloped me into a dreamless and forever sleep.
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Or is it really a dark and a never ending sleep for Y/N?
