"I'm.. so so sorry Toni.."
I breathe. I cannot imagine how much pain she's currently feeling. Her own twin brother.. killed? I want to express to her my sadness.. I.. I loved Caspar... but she can never know, especially not after what happened to him.
"I.. it's okay Ellie. I just can't believe he pasta way so quickly.. he had his whole life ahead of him..".
Yeah, his whole life with me. Ugh.. won't my brain just shut up?
"Look.. Toni I should go.. Betty's expecting me to be home for dinner.. she doesn't like the prospect of anybody missing a meal.. ever. If you'd like, we always have a spare seat at our table for one more."
"No.. no.. it's fine.. but just, before you go, will you come with me to visit his body tomorrow? Before he gets cremated.. I just need somebody there who's not family, just to comfort me"
I'm not sure.. I don't know if I could handle it..
"Please? I know it's a strange request, but just for me?" Oh, what the hell. "Sure, Toni.. what time?"
