Temptation

Envious Torture

"Bestfriend, do you still wanna die?" Jahseh questioned me as we laid next to each other.

We were currently in the treehouse because the night finally fell around us once again. I felt a lot safer when Jahseh slept with me at night.

"Everyday. It's my dream." I state as I smile sadly. Dying is still on my mind everyday. Yeah Jahseh coming into my life made it better but just living through that shit, not being able to take any of it back? I wanna get rid of the memories forever.

So yes, if death himself was staring me in the face, I would not cower in fear. I would beg him, Get on my hands and knees and beg him to take my soul. For I do not want it anymore.

I'm tired of the flashbacks. I want everything to just end.

"Same," he says as he looks away from me, staring out of the treehouse window. "But I never want to end it because I always wonder what will happen in the future. If it really will get better. There's always a chance, right?" He asks as he turns his attention back to me.

"Jahseh, if anything ever happens, live your life to its fullest. I believe that for you, that there will be a better future. You'll be something. So live life for me." I say as tears start to well in my eyes.

"Sonya, don't say shit like that. If so, we'll live that life together." He says as he sits up and pulls me to him, embracing me in a hug.

I hug him back tightly, sobbing heavily. I've never had anyone there for me when I was hurting and crying. So having Jahseh here holding me, it made me sob even harder.

"You're the bestest Bestfriend I've ever had. Even if you're the first person to be my friend." I cry as I hold him tightly. He pulls back and looks into my eyes. "Same here best." He says as he kisses my forehead. His lips linger for a few seconds before he pulls back. "I have to go somewhere tomorrow, will you be okay here by yourself for awhile?" He asks as he looks at me concerned like.

"Yes Jah, I'll be okay." I say as I somewhat giggle. "You know to text or call me whenever right?" I roll my eyes at his question. "Yes dad, I'll even check in if you want me to." T

I look at him and see his expression is serious and he looks slightly upset. "Sonya this is serious. Stop taking this as a joke. This fuck ass nigga is still looking for you. What if he finds you vro." He says as he somewhat raises his voice.

His statement made me frown. Then I frowned even harder because what he said was true. "I'm sorry jah." I say as I look down. I heard a shuffling noise and felt something on my chin.

I realized that he scooted closer and he was lifting my head so I could look at him. "Don't apologize mamas, just take this a little more serious alright? I don't wanna see anything happen to you. Now I'm about to go walk for a few minutes, text me if you need me. I won't be out long." Stood up kissing my forehead in the process.

"Jahseh!" I whisper shouted. He turned and looked at me. "What you weirdo." He says as he laughs quietly. I reach both of my arms out and flick my hands like a baby does when they want something. "Oh my godddddd, you are a big ass baby dude." He states as he rolls his eyes.

He walks over to me and picks me up. In that moment I take the chance to wrap my arms around him, hugging him tightly. He hugs back with as much force. "Be careful." I say as I let go of him. "I will, I'll be back soon." He smiles at me and with that, he makes his way out of the treehouse.

I sigh as I sit back down on the ground, already bored without him. I take out my phone and text him.

Sometimes I don't know about that kid.

I sat there for the rest of the night waiting till I hear the sound of the leaves shaking and footsteps in the treehouse.

I look up and see him smiling down at me.

"Well hello house slave." I say as I look back down at my phone, concentrating.

Listen, if you wanna play 2048, you have to have serious concentration.

Out of no where, my phone gets snatched from me.

"Now Jahseh, you just better give me my damn phone back before I mortal kombat yo ass. That's why ya nasty ass look like Mileena."

(Just in case you guys don't know what she looks like)

I stood up trying to get my phone back but he raised it up in the air.

"Jahseh, give. Me. My. Phone." I demand I as I jump up to reach it.

"You gotta reach it if you want it." He smirks as he raises it a little higher in the air.

Oh, so he wants to play the hard way huh? Bet.

I jab him in the stomach making him hunch over and lower the phone to my reach. I snatch it from his hands and do a victory dance.

"Said little nigger, you can't fuck with me if you wanted to." I sing as I start hitting the folks.

While doing so, I notice Jahseh is still bent over.

"Oh shit! Jah are you okay?" I ask as I go over to him. I hear him slightly groan while he still hunched over. In that moment I felt my hand twitch and pain immediately shot through my arm until it reached my stomach.

That's when I knew something was wrong.

I put my arms under his arm pits and slowly set him down on the ground. That's when I seen all of the blood on his shirt.

"Oh what the fuck Jahseh, what did you get into?" I say as my voice cracks.

"Sonya I'm okay. I'm okay. I just need a minute. Help me get my shirt off please." He says as he starts taking his arms out of the sleeves. Once he's done I take the shirt completely off of him, exposing the open wound on his stomach. "Fuck Jahseh, I'm gonna beat your ass. What Happened?" I ask as I examine the wound.

"I just got into it with a couple dudes. Nothing serious." He mumbles as he looks in another direction. "nOtHInG SeRioUs my fucking ass. You got stabbed!" I shout as I ball his shirt up and press it to the bleeding area. " He winces in pain and grabs my arm. "Not so hard." He says as while he looks me dead in my eyes.

I stare back, admiring the brown, almost black orbs. He loses contact for a second his eyes looking down at something then back into my eyes. I don't know why, but I was getting drawn into him, leaning down until our foreheads touched. We never lost eye contact during any of this. "Jahseh," I say breathlessly and with that he leaned in and our lips connected.

Never in my life have I felt so... happy. This kiss made me feel things I've never felt in my life ever. And it felt amazing.

Once we pulled back to catch our breath we stared at each other once again. After awhile Jahseh starts smiling then grabs my hand. No words were spoken, just our fast heart beats were heard.

During all of this, one thought was on my mind.

I think I like my best friend.