Cemetery Drive

I now know who needs a second chance prt 5

I managed to get a place to live in. No matter how much time I spend at the Cemetery, I can't live there. Plus, there's no food. I might be dead in a way, but I still need to eat. To come to think of it, I don't need to eat. I went days without eating when I first arrived back on Earth; and I wasn't hungry. Food is just for pleasure for me, I guess.

I do miss being hungry. How stuffed I got after eating. Now when I eat I just feel it go in me, like my stomach will still be empty. Maybe it's because I am dead and dead people decay and lose their flesh after a year. Although I have been here for over a 100 of years, I would've expected myself to decay, but I am still standing.

Maybe I feel empty, because I am alone. I haven't properly talked to a human since 1809. Officers don't count. I only get about 3 words in total before they freak out. 'I am not-'Is all I get to say, before they scream from me responding to them. I don't understand why they scream when I begin talking. What do they except? Just because I am half dead doesn't mean I can't talk.

The only person I know who isn't afraid of me is Gerard. He was also the only person I had talked too properly after 100 years of being here. Gerard was different though. He didn't run away when he saw me stab his boyfriend. He didn't scream when I got close to him. He didn't shoo me away when I wanted to leave. He asked for me to stay and be his friend. Probably knowing what this kid has gone through, I can see why he is not afraid of me.

It pains me to know that this kid is going to end up dead like me if he doesn't run out of that relationship, but come to think of it. I ran out on my abusive relationship and I ended up being murdered. Sure, I cheated on Zacky, but he was abusing me and all I wanted to do was to be with Jamia.

I can see wants to run, but he is afraid and has nowhere to go from the looks of it. I know he will run after he finds out about me. Maybe he'll fear life? I don't think he is afraid of death, from how much he told me he spends in the Cemetery. To think about it. Gerard seems alone. He said himself he had no friends and from the looks of it, I don't think he has a family. If he did I don't think they would want their son with that boyfriend of his. Ugh! I feel sorry for him and I never really felt anything other than anger and annoyance to someone since I was brought back to Earth.

Gerard. Gerard made me sad. When I studied him the day I met him, before he got jumped. He had bruises everywhere and you can see in his eyes that he didn't have much care in the world. It almost seems like he doesn't want to live anymore, but he is somehow still here. I want to know what is keeping him from leaving.

I didn't mean it in a bad way, i-it just seems like he wants to leave Earth, but he hasn't completely decided. It's like he wants a reason to stay and is still here looking for that reason before he goes. I don't want this kid to leave the Earth. He went through hell and he is not going to rot and stay motionless in the ground.

I only talked to Gerard a few times, but I am already attached to him. I feel like he is my best friend, but on other days I feel like he is just an acquaintance, when I don't want to be around him or anyone in general and I just want to lay on the seats in the mausoleum. I feel bad to push him away from what I can tell from him and it hurts me.

Gerard just needs a second chance. He needs a second chance before he goes. Lindsey must've known I run into Gerard and that he needed saving. She just brought me back in the wrong decade. It's 2004 and it took me over 100 years figure who needs a second chance. Maybe she brought me back in the wrong decade on purpose. To get used of things and not seem like an outcast. Things happen for a reason and I now know my reason to be back now......