Random Thoughts

oKAY

*slides in with fire flame heelies* GET READY FOR MY 3 AM RANT CONFESSION THINGY OF WHATEVER BECAUSE I'M CRYING

Okay so

I'm like afraid of love

Like I know that sounds stupid but hear me out

I seriously desperately want it, I wanna hold hands with someone, go on cute dates, cuddle, have angst moments but we fix them, go through thick and thin, I crave  it

But I'm terrified

What if I choose the wrong person

I have so many options

It could all go wrong

There's the guy that's been pinning for me since like 6th grade I could Make him so happy it could be lovey dovey

There's my best friend since kindergarten that we always casually joke around about being gay for eachother but it could actually happen

There's this guy where we text alot sometimes just memes but I'm always there for him and sometimes we get into deep convos and he really opens up and tells me stuff he hasn't told anyone before but when we sent texting we get really competitive in person

There's this guy I hate but at the same time love he's always a jerk but theres those few times he's not and he's fucking hot I keep trying to get away but he pops into my head

There's the queiter guy who loves memes and has so many opinions but usually stays queit about them but at the same time he'll talk to me about it and I'm always ready to listen

Seriously so many options and I could imagine all the scenarios with the but I'm terrified of perusing any

All my past loves even though it's only two have ended and it hurts and I don't wanna go through it again but I do want all the good times real true love

I honestly truely do want love

I'm just

Terrified