I Never Go Around Mirrors

(Chapter 3)(haunted life)

(Chapter 3)(haunted life)

(Sadie's p.o.v)

I was finally home in a house that held so many memories of my childhood.
"Well daddy I'm gonna be home for a while." I said into the empty home.
I put my coat on the rack. Mom had remarried and was living with them so I ended up with the house at the age of 18. I was now 22 and still crying over my father being gone. Remembering everything, every word, every laugh, look, and promise he made. I went to my closet and pushed all the old clothes back. It really needed a cleaning. I searched for a moment and found what I was looking for, pictures. I looked at the tattered old shoe box. Taking a deep breath I opened the box. I took some of the pictures out. I spread them out on the floor. I smiled looking at a picture of daddy shoving cake in moms face on their wedding day. I laughed when I came to a picture of me trying to teach daddy how to play hop scotch. Then shook my head at one of all of us sledding in the back yard.
Then something fell from the top of the closet shelf .
It landed with a thud on daddy's old boots.
I slowly got up. This closet had been shut since 1993 and there was bo telling what the hell was about to jump out at me. I grabbed one of my old t-ball bats and moved dads boot and screamed. "Oh, thank god, its just the Bible". I say relieved.
I picked up our family bible and saw something hanging out of it. A silver necklace. I opened the bible and the necklace slid into my hand. "Hm". I said seeing the paper that was stuck with it. It was a song written in my fathers hand writing. I smiled.

I slid the necklace around my wrist so it wouldn't get lost in the junk closet. I stepped out into the living room and sat in the chair.

"You said I'd live to regret it

I said, "I'll die before I do."

Now the pain is gonna kill me if I let it".

"Has it been a lifetime

Since I walked out on you?"

"I've been runnin' with my life wide open

Reaching out for whatever's in sight
But living like there's no tomorrow

Finally got to me tonight".

"You told me someday I'd be sorry

Now I feel every word come true
And one thing I've learned in a hurry

Freedom is a prison for a fool".

"Dialing our old number wasn't easy

It's been hard to admit,you're right.
And living like there's no tomorrow

Finally got to me tonight."

"I've been runnin' with my life wide open

Reaching out for whatever's in sight.

But living like there's no tomorrow". I

sang. Damn. Wait he recorded that didn't he. I flipped the page over and it had the date on it 1987. Hm, had to have been recorded. I looked at the necklace on my arm. I wonder if my little brother would want it. Jesse was momma and daddy's son that was born in 1987. He still lived with mama. I took the house because I'd never forgive her if she sold it and just moved onto the next man. It was outta line yeah. But she couldn't hold down a marriage at all and I loved my father and firmly believed if she would've stayed off her promotional tour he wouldn't have drank himself to death. But Jesse was a mamas boy for sure. I looked at the bible again. "I hope its beautiful up there daddy ". I said. No matter how hard I tried, I was gonna live a haunted life because of my father.